Just an update

So this week was a little hard until today, I had an excellent day. I had so much fun at work it was not even funny! I LOVE what I do! The people I work with just have a way of making everything go away. We went on a hay ride and milked a fake cow and saw some dogs do work with ducks it was excellent! Tomorrow is the end of the week and I am looking forward to my weekend. It should be a good weekend, and I think I might even go out with a friend. Thats right a friend :) woot! I use to work with this person and it should be fun, they are having a movie night so wooo. Not sure what night yet but I'm sure it will all work out.

I hope next week is as good as today was all week! However next week is going to be hard and there is a lot of work that must be done so I many end up working over the weekend because I have so much to finish before monday. Oh well I just thought I would update, thats it for now.

Just had to post this

I saw this guy singing this song on much music and I listened to all the words and suddenly felt moved. The words in it are great and I saw this and listened to it and it made me feel better. I'm not sure how music does this to people but it does it to me. Some times I can be in the worst place in the world and I will hear something that will bring me back. I think I am going to make this song offically my 'bring me back' song. We all get so lost some times and I think in times when I'm lost or hurt this song will help me bring it back to me.

On the day note, today was a long day and kind of hard but I'm hoping tomorrow will be better. I'm to go to this Ranch again on Wend and it looks like its going to rain! Boo I'm sick of bad weather when I take my people anywhere. But it will still be a lot of fun, looking forward to it and than Thur :) wooot! The weekend I hope will be good also. I need to call my Landlord at some point tonight or tomorrow to find out when he is going to finish everything here.

I hope to get better sleep tonight and I hope that tomorrow is better than today, I have so much work to do gezz I hope that I can get it done so I do not have to do it over the weekend. One person I have to work, I am having a hard time with this person because they never seem to have the time to do the job they get paid to do. It kind of pisses me off because this person has only been with us for a bit and he is trying to advance and everyone supports him, but he can't get what he needs to done. I am always getting shit done and it goes by with nothing from any one. Oh well, I hope you enjoy these Lyrics they are unbelievable!

All About Me
Classified Ft Chad Hatch
[Chad Hatch:]
Life's not what you take
It's not about the promises you make
It's not about the friends you might've made
Or love that is gone

Life is what you give
It's not about the stupid things you did
It's not about the way things could've been
It's about movin' on

[Chorus:]
It's all about you
So every morning when wake, before the first step that you take
Just think it's not what you make it
And you'll make it through

[Classified:]
This life will leave you stressed out, left out with your neck out, ain't nothing changed
It's real life so we deal right but it feels like it's something strange.
We wonderin' the dumbest things and let everything get under our skin
Trouble again, tryin' to impress someone else. It's fucked in the head.
So do you, you'll never make everyone happy. It just won't happen.
At the end of day, when all say is said, you better be ready to go back at'em.
I learn slow, my verse shows my growth, my wisdom.
If you positive, or you negative, it don't make a difference not when you live it.
Cause some of the most successful people on this planet
Will kill themselves for somebody else's like they really couldnt manage.
Then we got bums, alcoholics on the streets
With no stress, no where to rest, no where to dress, no where to sleep.
And they say fuck my morals. I'm drinkin' away my sorrows.
I'm livin' life and I'm happy, I ain't thinking about tomorrow.

[Chorus]

[Chad Hatch:]
Life is what it brings
It's not about cars and fancy things
Or hairsalons and diamond rings
Girls don't lose your seed

Life is all about the things you'll never figure out
It's all about the people you allow in and the memories that you keep

[Classified:]
This here is life so tell me who choses whats wrong and right.
Is it what we see on tv? Get a job, raise a family.
That's how I was raised, how I was brought up
Get a wife, a son and daughter.
That's how I was taught to be proper.
Never thought anyone could get caught up.
And slowly I get up and the fairytale quickly vanished.
Realized that life is a bitch and shit, you gotta be able to stand it.
And you gotta be able to handle it, this stress and the pressure, you channel it..
And you learn to cope at the end of your rope anyway that you can with liqor or dope.
Or work hard, raise your kids. Strip clubs, whatever it is.
Smoke weed, shoot hoops, whatever you find your happiness through.
It's your life. Just make sure you know what you want when you go out and get it
Keep doing this shit for you, not your crew or the dude you're tryna impress, kid.
Life is simple, life is hard and yeah life is fun
So enjoy the things around you before your life is done.

[Chorus]

Why?

Some times I wounder why me, why does this always have to happen to me? I know you have no idea what I am talking about but tonight everything sucks, and all I want to do it kick something or go and cry in the darkness. I thought life was going to get better, and now maybe it will have a chance to again but at them moment all I want to know is WHY!

I think I can feel my blood boil! I can not remember the last time I was this mad, oh yes I can it was in December. All I want to do is say bad words and have a drink or a pack of smokes that might be alright also. GOD

Any way I just needed to get some of that out of my system I'm done now.

Happy Friday the 13th

So back to work was great! I got to go to Red Deer for a hike and it was so much fun. Than today I got to go to the YMCA it was great! I am so happy I have my new driving stuff! Next week I get to go on a hike again and I get to take some clients to this thing in down town. Its great! So happy to be back at work.

This weekend I might go out! So looking forward to that. I'm going shopping with my co-worker tomorrow during the day. That will be good I really need to find some new shoes! I really have nothing else to write about right now so I'm going to leave it at that for now.

End of vacation

Well this is the last day of my vacation and I could not be happier, I cannot wait to get back to work. This free time is kinda driving me a little nuts to say the lest! I have so much work to do when I get back, at the end of this month we have our accreditation coming up and that is going to be so much fun, I've been picked two times to talk now. I hope I do well. I need to start finishing all my lessons and getting everything in order. So I have two weeks to do that HAha I did not realize that, dear lord! Well I can pull this out I will just have to get moving as fast as I can. So tomorrow I think I have a meeting but wend, thru, and Fri. will be working ass off time in order to get everything done.

Tomorrow is going to be my first day taking my new rote to work and I hope I get there in time and that the train is not supper crazy, even though I know it will be but one can dream, I have to make my lunch tonight and make sure I get to sleep at a good hour. The last few days I've had a really hard time sleeping and not going to sleep until crazy hours of the morning and night, last night was the worse! I think the last time I looked at the clock was 5 am, now tonight some how I need to sleep at 11 at the latest and get up for 6am. I hope I can because I have to go out of town with my group tomorrow and I do not want to be driving all super sleepy with 14 people in my van!

So I'm going to start working out again, because I'm really sick of feel like crap so next week I'm going to start doing some stuff again, this week kinda gets messed up due to the holiday today. But I'm going to start all over again next week. My weekend this week is going to be finish up all the details for work, fun fun. Man I have so much work to do! Any way I think that’s all I'm going to write for now.

Finally

So I am offically moved in I have my internet, phone, and tv again, woot. I still have a few things left at the old place but you know its hard getting all the little things some times. I'm happy to be in my new place I still have a lot to do here but its coming along. I hope that when I have the cat conversation goes on that it goes really well I miss my kitty like crazy right now and I wish she was here! So I have 5 days of my vacation left to relax and decorate! I need to find my hammer but I am not sure where it is I think I have unpacked most everything at this point and have not come across it stupid thing yet.

I find myself with very little motavation today to get things done but I want to so it feels like home and I feel comfy agian. I got this really cool picture but I can't seem to get it to stay on the wall, I have to use mack-tac but it keeps coming down no matter how much I put on so I think I'm going give tape a try and see if that works any better. I think it weighs to much for the tac but we will see maybe its the wall or something. Oh well any way I'm off to look for my tape and see if I can get the silly thing to stay up. I will write again soon.

boo

So today was a little bit of a show, first of all I'm up at 7am all ready to go and get moved in. Drive to the place and walk in with my bed in arm to... a ladder and stuff all over my new living room and kitchen! This pissed me off a little and so unload the bed and go back to old place and call new landlord... what the hell is going on I thought you where going to be done? So he's a little rude and I get frustrated but the show must go on... any way I grab a few more things and head over again at 1pm and he is there say blah blah blah whatever and really rude! So I leave pissed off and just fuming pack some more into the truck and go over again, than he says due to the inconvenience I'm going to take $100 off this months rent...I'm think SWEET! So regardless to say I'm not staying there tonight I still have more to move tomorrow but I didn't want to be in there tonight cause he was doing something to the floors in the kitchen and just in case I did not want to breath those fumes in!

So it looks like tomorrow I will move the rest of my stuff and be in there for Monday night. He still has more work to do and will be coming in at some point tomorrow also but I have to be there as my couch is getting delivered between 12 and 5pm. So I hope that it all goes well and I will be in my new place tomorrow night. I have some more stuff to pack still but no more boxes so I have to unpack some stuff and come back and re-pack the things I don't have room for yet. Any way I thought I would update the current situation because its a little aggravating and well I need to vent somewhere. So this time I hope that I will not be able to update until my computer is up and running on the 4th!

Things happen to fast!

Well its been a bit again, and it will be a bit until I can post again after tonight, you see I'm moving (with in my city). I was going to be moving in May but I found this really great place for a great price so I jumped on it and now after a 4 days to pack my whole life up, which is not down yet but I have run out of boxes, I am moving tomorrow morning. It kinda took me a back at how fast this all has happened. But on I go full steam ahead and scared out of my mind. It's funny how things turn out you know. Never in a million years would I have imagined this is where my life would be right now.

My internet, phone and cable will not be ready to go until the 4th, I have my couch coming on the 2nd, and a dentist appointment on the 3rd. Than its smooth sailing or at lest I hope it is, I still have to get my cat in but I'm hoping that will not be a problem. I have 10 whole days off work which by the time I am settled in my new place will be down to 5! So I will have 5 days to de-stress and relax. That should be good. I have no idea what my future is going to be at this point in time and that is so unbearably stressful, things are all over the place. I'm staying in a city where I hardly know a soul and I'm going out on my own, I think I had to write that to realize that I'm really going to do this.

I am not to sure what else to write at this point in time, wish me luck! I will post again from chateaus la M. Thats all for now.

A fast update!

So I have to leave in a bit to run around and do some stuff but I thought I would up date about something I talked about in my last post. The competition at work so our boss thought that both teams did excellent in both areas so we all got two days off with pay!!! Woot, I'm not sure when I will use mine more than likely when my sister comes to visit. But I was supper happy when I found that out. Its nice to be rewarded for doing something like that and knowing your stuff and the ability to be creative. So the count down is still on and now four days until I get my vacation!!! THANK GOD, I need a break so bad its not even funny.

Any way thats all I have to say for now and I need to start getting ready to leave I have an hour so not to long and need to get dressed and blow dry my hair and such so I'm going to go. I'll write more later.

Almost a week....

So it is almost a week until I get a week off work! WOOT, I cannot wait to have some time off, it is much needed, and as of today it is 10 days until I get my vacation! That includes the weekend also. I was going to go back to my home town for a few days but I am not sure if I will be able to do that now, I'm going to wait and see what happens and go from there. So I know that I mentioned that I was looking into become a supportive roommate, or did I? Any way I have done up my cover letter for that and just need to do some grammar and punctuation checks and than I can start applying to different agencies. I still have some thinking to do about that before I decide for sure that’s what I want to do but I leaning towards yuppiers at the moment.

The biggest things holding me back are the "what if's" and the clients I work with also because there are people that I look at and think dear lord what the f**k would I do if I had to live with that every day! But at the same time it would be a great experience and I feel I would be a great roommate for one of them because I know what they need and what they want but never seem to get from others. So I feel I could provide a new kind of life for them. But the largest question in my mind is... Am I really ready to take this on my plate? At the moment I cannot answer that question, but I think I am ready to at lest begin some of the start points for this quest.

Today I think I had the funniest training in the whole world we did a scavenger hunt for policies and a bunch of other junk but it was a tone of fun. I think it was the most enjoyable thing I have done there yet, on a personal level not a professional one. The management team was to announce the winners by the end of the day and did not but there are two different categories, Creativity and Education. The prize for each is a Day OFF with pay, so you have the possibility to get two days with pay off, which would be grand. But the other team did a good job to and did their work so I feel as though I would want the other team to get one of my days off because they tried really hard but I must say this my team kicked some major bum!

Any who I don't have much else to say besides that for now, wish me luck in winning at lest one day off with pay and I'm going to run now.

Its been a while.... again

I have a hard time updating all the time and can never seem to do it. Than at times I get to my computer and get in the mood to write and than all the sudden my mind is blank! Does that evr happen to any one else? I sure hope so, I have been finding out a lot lately that I'm not the only one who goes through a lot of things. I hade a really good talk with one of my co-workers today, her and I do not work together she is in a different program but she is supper cool and always has really good things to say. It was refreashing to know that I am not the only one in the world who has hard days.

So work is going well, I feel a little over worked and under paid but I mean what should I expect working in Social Services! Also I feel like we are being watched lately, my boss came into one of my classes the other day just to see how things where going, this never has happened before! I'm not sure if they are coming to see how we are doing or if they want to make sure that we are doing our job that they thing we aren't. So I have come up with a great solution, make them particapate! haha So when my boss came in I said " come sit at the table and pay the game with us, she did and than after two rounds left saying this was lots of fun. Today one of the other Managers came in and I got him up and playing a game also. I play a lot of games but I feel that pratical us makes things easier for my clients to understand how to us the skills I teach.

Any way after I got him up he tried to leave right away but he had a lot of fun, I'm not sure if they understand why I do things the way I do but I think its important that they see I'm trying to give the clients the best possible experience! I have some time off soon and I am so looking forward to that, not as much as I was before because I am now not going anywhere but I really need the time off and who knows maybe I'll rent a car and just go somewhere else for a bit. I really could use a change of pace, even for just a little bit. Any who I have some things to do before I go to bed so I will try to write again soon, and hopfully I have something to say when I sit down to write.

Just something I thought was cool!

Four jobs I have had in my life:

1. Program Facilatator

2. Cashier

3. Care giver

4. Manager in training

Four Movies I like:

1. Sweet Home Alabama

2. Little Mermaid

3. The Notebook

4. Baraka

Four places that I've lived:

1. Vancouver

2. Saskatoon

3. Gravenhurst

4. St.Onesime

Four TV shows I love to watch:

1. The OC (but off the air now)

2. The Gilmore girls

3. Simpsons

4. America's Next Top Model

Four places I have been on vacation:

1. Victoria

2. Montreal

3. Kelowna

4. My Home town

Four of my favorite foods:

1. Avocado sandwiches

2. cheese cake

3. pizza

4. kozyshake pudding

Four places I would rather be right now:

1. on a beach

2. hugging my nephews

3. (only sometimes) anywhere but here!

4. Paris

The beginning of the week

Well it is Monday tomorrow and I feel a little rested at lest. I have been going to the Library a lot lately and have got some great stuff for my week; I got some DVD's on Math, literacy, and government as I start my program this week on that kinda stuff. I think my clients will get a lot out of these movies... well I hope anyway. I have a lot of problems teaching the math component as I am good at math I am not so good at breaking it down into the really simple stuff so the one DVD I got has all kinds of math songs and rhymes to remember the things you are to do. It looks great and I think I might learn what will work really well for them with this.

I have been getting a lot of movies lately from the Library its great! I made this really great thing over the weekend but I can't say to much about it as it is for my sister, and a surprise... so surprise sis your getting something extra special from me soon. I wish I could tell more but as soon as she has gotten the package I will talk about it. Which will not be for a bit because something else I am doing is having issues right now, so as soon as that part is done off it will go!

I got to see a Canstruction at my local city hall this past week also for those of you who read my blog and do not know what that is look at this web site: http://www.canstruction.com/indexn.html
Every thing in these sculptures are made out of non perishable food items its really cool! Any way it’s getting kinda late here and I have some stuff to do yet before the night is done I will write more later!

Stupid Driving people~!

So Yesterday I went for my driving test because I have to have a different license in order to drive my clients around. Any way it went really well subtract from the fact that the stupid man said "this license would mean that you are a professional driver, and your parallel park was not professional!" What the F*ing hell?..."you did everything else totally right and really well but that parking was not good and its states that if you can not do that well than you are an automatic Fail."
Alright So I know you are a professional dude but come on you have got to be kidding me! So I have to go back on Thursday next week and do it all over again.

So normally I don't really like swearing a whole bunch but jess yesterday when I got back to work F this F that Stupid F*ing moron who fails someone for not doing it 'professionally'. He can go to hell! The worse part is the test will be with him again :( not so happy about that!

Anyway now that I think my rant is down, last night I went to the opening ceremonies for the clients at work and it was pretty darn cool, did not however stay for the whole event as I was getting a mass o head-ache and I was so hungry I think the people around me could hear my tummy over everything else. So we left at about 8pm. But other than the leaving early and loud stuff it was GREAT.

I should be on my way I have some stuff I need to get out of the way today before I can relax and try and distress! Have a good day!!

Pretty things

So I am on a long weekend, and it is nice to have an extra day to just relaxe. I was thinking about doing somethings today which I still may but for now its nice to to take in the sound of typing and slince...and the little sounds of tracfic of course. So yesterday I went to this part of the city that I love and got some really intresting things. I got this really pretty wax flower, its one of those hawwii flowers and some mental art!

Here is the flower!


Here is the metal art, very pretty butterflies!

I also tried to go see something else but there where warning signs outside that said "be ready for long line ups, we are very busy today" So did not end up going in. Any who I just got out of bed a little bit ago and have yet to eat so I'm going to go have some food, I will write again soon.

Weekends are a good thing

Thank goodness for the joyful weekend! I need a freaking break so bad its not even funny, between all the clients fighting and all the staff going crazy at my job I think I am well due for a restful weekend! On Monday I have to go write a driving test to "Up grade" My license. Kinda scary but I'm sure it will all go really well. I found out yesterday that my sister (who I knew was going to come visit some point this year) asked my mom and dad to come along with her on the trip. Maybe in July or something. I think that would be nice to see them all.

I think that I'm slowly becoming less and less interesting, I can never think of anything to say or to write about. I have a lot that happens from time to time but I sit here and I can never think of a damn stupid thing to say ever, its kinda stupid. With my work we have an art studio in the downtown of my city. Tomorrow there is a workshop that is free, or by donation. They are making lanterns, and I am thinking about heading down there to go paint one up. But we will have to see what tomorrow brings.

Any way I think I might head off to do something productive not that this is not just I think I might be able to do something else. Come to think of it I think I will just go watch some TV or something and relax.

Woot

So its the week end finally! Thank goodness I needed a break. So the last few days I have been seeing this silly thing on TV and I decided to go to the web site and look at it, so I did it and this is was I came up with.
This is me as an M&M, kinda fun kinda silly, kind of a wast of time but still fun. If you want to make your self into an M&M or just create something silly here is me free advertising for M&M's Go to :

www.becomeanmm.com

Happy Saturday

Just for fun

A-Available or Taken: Taken :)

B-Best Friend: hmm you know the sad thing about this is I have some Great Friends but because of the way life is now I would not say that any are a Best friend.

C-Cake or Pie: Cake, I love cake, pie is good to, but I like cake better!

D-Drink of Choice: I really like this soy drink, its called silk and its chocolate. But I have not had it in a very long time.

E-Essential Item (s) Used Everyday: Glasses! I think thats my number one because with out them I am lost!

F-Favorite Color: BLUE, and lately red also

G-Gummy Bears or Worms: Bears, I use to bit the heads off of a few and that mix and match the bodies and head, kinda crazy but I thought that the two fruit flavors together where GREAT!

H-Hometown: Small little town in Northern BC

I-Indulgence: Madagascar Chocolate made by Lindt chocolate man! mmmm good!

J-January or February: January My nephew was born in this month! I love him and his brother so very much and I miss them all the time~!

K-Kids & Names: I don't have kids... and the thought of what I would name them has crossed my mind but I will save those for when I have to make that decision.

L-Life Is Incomplete Without: Family and friends and my kitty

M-Marriage Date: Unknown at this point in time, I can not see into the future!

N-Number of Siblings: 2 - brother and sister

O-Oranges or Apples: Mandarin oranges

P-Phobias or Fears: being high up on anything! I don't think that will ever go away. Also I fear that I am not on the right path some times but that has always been an on going fear of mine.

Q-Favorite Quote: "Don't Frown because you never know who is falling in love with your smile."

R-Reason To Smile: Because I am lucky enough to be here and every day is a gift!

S-Season: Summer

T-Tag 3 or 4 People: I don't believe in Tags but I think this is a great way to get to know others and your self

U-Unknown Fact About Me: One time when me and my sister and brother where all alone at our house we saw the moon but it took up the whole sky! it was the weirdest thing in the world and no one ever believed us!

V-Vegetable You Don't Like: onions use to be it but I like most everything now, however I still kinda think onions are nasty!

W-Worst Habit: Smoking!

X-X-rays: teeth, knees, neck, back, feet, hands, I think that is it.

Y- Your Favorite Food: umm kozy shack pudding! I think thats the best think ever!

Z-Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius

God I take forever

So its been a long time since I last wrote anything on here but I have been busy and trying to get things all back on track. I can't even remember what I wrote last time I was writing. I got flowers yesterday for no reason...in them was pink roses, one calla-lily, some daises, and other dark pinkish coloured flowers. Very nice surprise!
I figure before I write more I will do this thing I found on my sisters blog:

From 'The End of the World'
The rules are simple:

1. Find the nearest book.
2. Name the book.
3. Name the author.
4. Turn to page 123.
5. Go to the fifth sentence on the page.
6. Copy the next three sentences and post to your blog.
7. Tag three more lucky souls. (from me... OPTIONAL! - I say if you are reading this and have a minute give it a try - no time - don't worry about it.)

1) found the nearest book in a box full of book, closed my eye and grabbed one
2) Shirley
3)Charlotte Bronte
4) page 123 found!
5) five sentences in..
6) Moore laughed.
"A most pithy vaunt," said he; "one that redounds vastly to the credit of your dear Yorkshine friends. But don't fear for me, Lina: I am on guard against these lamb-like compatriots of yours: don't make yourself uneasy about me."
"How can I help it? ..."
very interesting I don't understand the point of this but I thought it was a cool thing.

Now where was I... What I have been doing... well work has been busy and I have been finishing up a proposal that I had been working on for about 2 months. Which was delivered yesterday to its destination after approval from my CEO! Fun fun. I have been looking into other jobs, but I think I am happy where I am, I was just getting to into all the politics around that place. I have taken my self out of that now and things are so much better!

I have started paying back my student loan.. fun..sad really, but it has to be done or I will get in a load of trouble. What else has been going on? Not all that much just it seems that it was all a little overwhelming. Strange I was so stressed and going crazy and now my mind is blank as to what has been taking place these past weeks. I think I want to go see my family in April but I'm not sure if that is going to work out, we will have to see. Any who I should run I have a lot of work to get done and its not getting done with me sitting here typing away.

weekends

Well this weekend was pretty good, on Friday night we went to a Dinner Theater, and it was soooo good! I laughed and laughed, it was the best show we have seen there yet and the next one should be even better! I am looking forward to it. On Sat we went to Ikea and got a new bed frame and a new TV stand, Our living room looks very nice now and I am glad that we got that. The bed frame is also nice, however its a little strange to be off the floor as high as we are so that is a bit strange. But other wise I really like it a lot!

Work is going well, I am a little over stressed but I think that might be getting better soon, I'm trying to not take on so much. I just get to into my job and I want to do as much as I can and than I take on a load that might be a bit to much and I feel like I'm going to break! So I think I'm going to plan a vacation soon, I might go back to my home town and help my sister out while her husband is away, I'll have to look in to when I will get the most out of taking a break. I might sit down with my calendar tonight and take a look at just that, because I would really like to spend some good time with my nephews and my sister.

Any way I think I'm going to go and start looking into so planning but I will try to be more on the ball with writing.