More new things

But this time I feel good about them :) I am going to be moving at the end of August to a beautiful large house, with a friend from work. I feel really good about this and am looking forward to a new place with more space. I will also be saving some money and that is fantastic. I have a feeling life will be getting back to normal again very soon. This week coming up and next week are going to be long and hard, we are going to have really low staff because everyone is on holidays. But I think it will be alright. I just want these next two weeks to go by so I can start packing and doing all that fun stuff. I get to paint my new place :) WOOT!

I can't wait to move I think this is the most positive I have ever felt about a move and it is a nice change. I'm going to join a gym with some of my extra money! Woot, all new wonderful things soon. I'm looking forward again to life. I just need to get through the next two weeks with no problems of facing all the stress I'm going to be facing. Wish me luck! I'm sure I will hold my head up and pull through it is just I know its going to be a challenge. But I love hard work and a challenge so this should be great. Ha well I do like a challenge but I just wish this was stuff that was a little easier.

Any who I just thought I would up date really happy about my move, I will try and write again soon, but it might be a while. Maybe next weekend as it is a long weekend. But will have to see. I might just try and pull through my two weeks before I update. Any way I'm going to go need to start unwinding so that I can sleep tonight.

Wishing for a simpler time

I find that being an adult has become far to complected, the ever day choices that we have to make are becoming to much for my brain to handle. Sometimes I just wish I could back in time to a simpler place where the choices I had to make where easy and clear. Yes maybe those choices also effected how your life would turn out but it didn't seem as big of a deal. Things that you knew you could live with because it was that much easier. I'm really not totally sure why I'm writing about this but I feel that I just need to consider what my future holds for myself.

I was thinking about going back to school and finishing my Bachelors degree but I'm not sure if thats the right path. I'm going to go to the workshop coming up and I'm hoping that this will help me in finding focus again. There are other things as well like should I stay in the city I live in or move back to my home province I miss being there. I miss my friends and being able to see my family when I want to. I just am not sure what the future has in store for me but I'm hoping its still something great.

Thats really all I have to say for now.

what a mood

Grezz am I ever in a mood today. I do not think I can begin to tell you how much of a bitch I felt like today. I felt like I snapped at lest 3 times today thats really bad, I got so up set for people interrupting today that I thought I would smack someone. At the end of the day I went into my bosses office and said "I'm really in a bad mood today and I want to kill the the clients at the moment I'm not going to but I really want to hurt someone. I just need to sit here and vent a little bit." She was really good at listening to me it was nice, then my co-worker came in and he had a bad day too. So we just sat in there and de-stressed a little bit.

I still feel like I'm going to snap but its not as bad as it was I'm just in a really bad mood, maybe sleep will help tonight, god for the sake of my clients it dame well better. Tomorrow is going to be such a long day and I am not looking forward to it. I was like a month ago but right now not so much. I'm really just err... I feel like I need another break again but I don't I just need to learn how to cope different.

Any way I just needed to vent a little bit and make myself feel not so bad about snapping. Will right again soon.

Life is busy

Well I have no more vacation time coming up any time soon, I have a few long weekends and so lieu time left to us but who knows when that will happen. My work week is over and I'm finding out how busy I'm going to be with this new job that I now have at work, along with my old job still. I've been finding it really hard to find a placement for a group of people this could posse to be harder then first thought, I might ask my sister for some pointers. I think she might be able to give me some good ideas.

So work and life are a little crazy again and on top of it all I felt like crap most of the week, I hope this feeling goes away soon. I have a lot on my plate and on my mind lately but its alright I can handle this. Hmm what else is going on? Not to much really just hanging out doing what I need to do to get by. I am thinking about moving into my friends house into her basement because rent will be way cheaper, but I'm not sure about it yet so we will have to wait and see.

Any way I'm going to go and think about what to do for the rest of the night. I was going to watch a movie with a friend but I'm not sure because its so hot and I don't feel so good, but who knows. Any way I'll write again later.

Bitter Sweet

Well My sister and my nephews just left on there journy back to my home land and I'm a little heart broken to see them go. I don't think I have had the need to cry in a long time but this time I was a little baby. It just made me relize how much I'm missing them and how I wish they where closer. The hardest part about being so far away is that I'm staying because I love my job and the thought of leaving that behind right now does not sit well with me. But I wonder if I will ever get ahead by staying where I am.

The only reason I was alright with them leaving is that now my back will not hurt when I get up in the morning because I get my bed back. Other then that there was nothing happy about them going. However I did get some good pictures and some excellent memories. Well back to life I guess, I think I might start looking more at that, how my life is here and what it would be like some where else because I think I'm almost done here. I like all the great friends I have made, and I could not ask for more for job statifaction, maybe more money but other then that I have nothing here I think it might be time to start the search again.

Any way I just thought I would do a little up date while my mind was a mess and thats really all I have to say for now.

Today is the day

My sister is going to be here today, I am not sure what time but I'm going to take a guess and say she will be in town by 5:30pm tonight, maybe 6. I am hoping that everything goes well with her here, I'm a little worried about the other people in my building as I forgot that this was an adult building and kids are normally not allowed but I think most people would think that was for a living situation not a visiting one. I also hope my appartment is aired out enough for my sisters liking and that she can stay here. Due to the fact that I smoke it gets not so nice in here, and she hates the smell of smoke. So I've tried with everything to make sure that the smell is not in here, but I can not really tell because I'm a smoker. I would need a second person to really make sure of it and would have to be someone who does not smoke.

Feeling a little better since last time that I wrote, minus from this morning I'm feeling like crap, but thats alright I'm sure that will go away. I have to run to the store today before they get here so that I have something for the boys to eat when they get here. Man I'm going to need a nap today I'm to sleepy. I did not sleep well last night, nor for very long so on top of the feeling like crap I am also very sleepy. I just want to get the stuff that I need to get come home and have a long nap until my sister gets to town.

Any way I think I'm going to go and relaxe for a bit before heading out to the store. Will write again soon.