Well I`ve been alone with the little man now for three days and have two more to go and I am exhausted! I haven`t had a break and I feel like I might pull my hair out. The Man is away right now trying something out and I`m alone doing everything and its fucking hard and I hate it. He and I have to have a very real conversation about this because I can`t do this again its way to much and with no break not even a little one its way overwhelming.
Today he has been especially fussy and I feel like I want to go for a long walk off a short cliff. I need help I need the Man, I have no idea how mothers do this on there own. The shitty part, oh yes it does get worse, is he comes back only to work for three days and then I think he is leaving again. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK ....FUCK So not only am I doing this now but even when he is back still no real break. I want to go way for 5 days well he does everything and see how happy he is. This is bull shit and not something I signed up for!
Okay so he is having a hard time sleeping right now so I need to get going. One exciting thing tho is I`m writting this well laying on my tummy! I haven`t done this since before I was with child and I totally missed it. Any way I need to go.
I`m so burnt out :(
2 comments:
I'm sorry things are shit right now - they will get better...
You are welcome to come here while this shit is happening - I can at least help out in the evening and weekends.
*sigh* fucking life
I might take you up on that depending on what the Man says once he is back. We Will see. I'm booked in a class but its not the end of the world if we don't go. I'll let you know
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