He has fallen asleep with out any help now seven times!!! He is so good it is not even funny, I am the luckiest mommy ever. I am blessed with the best little man ever and I am more in love with him ever day. Last night we read our story and after a little bit of playing and talking he fell right to sleep as soon as I put him in his bed. So the sad part is that he is still in our room but I'm the one who is not ready for him to go. Plus he has a fussy moment every night where he needs some help staying asleep. So until thats totally fixed I think that its best to have him so close. Plus I'm going to miss him once he is moved.
I'm hoping to go home to see my family soon so they can meet the best little man ever. Well next to the best two little men who are I'm sure excited to meet there cousin. Any way well he is sleeping I have a few more things I would like to do. I just really wanted to tell everyone about my amazing little miracle :)
Monday, February 28, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
my little man
So my little man is getting so big he is 19lbs 7oz but I think he is slowing down because that is a half pound gain in two weeks before he would have gained way more but I think he is totally slowing down now. He is so awesome it is not even funny! I love him so much and I think next week we are going to do a big trip home I think maybe wend or thursday we will leave for the weekend.
what else well my car got hit by a deer and totally fucked it up but it is almost totally fixed the windsheld is totally fixed now I just need to get a new side mirror and we will be good to go :) It is not pretty but it works and will get us around safely until we can afford a new car. Thanks to my understanding Man it has been a hard two week but it will be ok some times I get a little worked up and things have been super hard on us but we can get through this I'm sure.
Any way I'm going to get going and play with the little man who is just getting up :)
what else well my car got hit by a deer and totally fucked it up but it is almost totally fixed the windsheld is totally fixed now I just need to get a new side mirror and we will be good to go :) It is not pretty but it works and will get us around safely until we can afford a new car. Thanks to my understanding Man it has been a hard two week but it will be ok some times I get a little worked up and things have been super hard on us but we can get through this I'm sure.
Any way I'm going to get going and play with the little man who is just getting up :)
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
CRAP
yesterday I got an unexpected bill from our wonderful tax man. I guess I missed a T4 but I don't recall working for place that sent it to them. I have no idea how I'm going to afford it with all the other things I have to pay for its just to much. I was so excited to be able to put a large amount on my student loan next month and now that is just not going to happen. What a bitch! Life totally sucks some times. I also really want to go home and see my family and now I'm not going to be able to afford to for a long time. SUCKS
I think I'm also getting a cold which sucks cause my last mommy and me class is today and I totally don't want to go. So I think I might go for just a litttle bit to give my email out to some of the people and then come home. Any way I have to go the little man needs me
I think I'm also getting a cold which sucks cause my last mommy and me class is today and I totally don't want to go. So I think I might go for just a litttle bit to give my email out to some of the people and then come home. Any way I have to go the little man needs me
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Tried!
Today the Mans parents are coming to visit the little man. Whenever they come we get ride of more stuff which totally makes me happy. This time I am planning on getting ride of all of my VHS tapes. I spent years building on this collection but I never watch them any more since I have movie central and they are heavy and take up so much space so I have decided it is time for them to go plus I'm going to donate them so that makes it even better. I'm also getting ride of a coffee table that my brother gave me years ago... why because it takes up lots of space and I need room for the little man to move around in here, we are also getting ride of the sofa bed woop! There will be so much space in here. The Man is planning on going snow boarding tomorrow so I'm going to hang two shelves with his dad (he doesn't know this lol) cause I have a bunch of little collectible stuff that needs to go up higher so baby dosen't get it in his mouth. We are also going to install a new light fixture, which I bought like MONTHS ago and have been wanting it put up forever. This trip they will do it.
Then I just have to move around the living room and we will be good to go for crawling and walking :) Plus it will be more stream lined in here. I just havn't figured out a few small details yet about the move around. Like I kinda hate where the tv is going to go but there are only two options one makes the room balanced and is in its current location, not so good for crawling because I cut off half the room with a sofa. The other makes it unbalanced but extends the carpet space for little man to move around on.
Oh well I will see what I can do. The little man finally fell back asleep so I think I will head off to try and tidy up a big more before the mans rents get here.
Then I just have to move around the living room and we will be good to go for crawling and walking :) Plus it will be more stream lined in here. I just havn't figured out a few small details yet about the move around. Like I kinda hate where the tv is going to go but there are only two options one makes the room balanced and is in its current location, not so good for crawling because I cut off half the room with a sofa. The other makes it unbalanced but extends the carpet space for little man to move around on.
Oh well I will see what I can do. The little man finally fell back asleep so I think I will head off to try and tidy up a big more before the mans rents get here.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
ugh!
So the last little while has been a challenge on me and my family we have been through some big changes and I think it might be getting the better of us. I just want to feel like this is going to be ok and I'm not sure when that will happen. I'm mentally and physically just done. I can manage to take care of the little man but I just feel like I don't have anything left and everything is just putting me to a breaking point. I wish things were better. I wish I felt better. I wish things were easier. As you of you couldn't tell but I'm feeling a little bit down tonight. I know things are always hard with everything but I recall a time when things where so much easier.
What else? My little man is amazing and I love him so much he makes me smile all the time. He is so tried today I think he might be growing. Oh and he is 18lbs 10oz and yes I think he is growing more. He isn't even 3 months yet and he is so big. He is the biggest one in the class.
I can't wait to move the house around wear the sofa is it is super cold and I think it will be better once I move it around. Any way I really just needed to vent and get that out of my system. THe little man is having a sleep and I think I might make a tea. Thats all for tonight.
What else? My little man is amazing and I love him so much he makes me smile all the time. He is so tried today I think he might be growing. Oh and he is 18lbs 10oz and yes I think he is growing more. He isn't even 3 months yet and he is so big. He is the biggest one in the class.
I can't wait to move the house around wear the sofa is it is super cold and I think it will be better once I move it around. Any way I really just needed to vent and get that out of my system. THe little man is having a sleep and I think I might make a tea. Thats all for tonight.
Wednesday, February 09, 2011
Sleepy
This morning I was suppose to take my little man to the doctor cause he has some funky smell coming from his ear. So they call this morning and say the appointment will not work and want to book it for later with this A-whole at the clinic I decline and ask for someone else...not until Monday!!!! Monday are you kidding me? Freaken hell! So I am on hold with another clinic right now hoping for an appointment today but not sure if it will happen. He is also coughing a lot which makes me wonder.
Oh I also missed my work out because of the time the appointment was booked for, what a piss off! Hmm what else. I finally got the extra side table out of the little mans room! WOOh now I just need the Mans parents to come and take all the extra clothing away and we will be set! They come this Sunday, so soon. I've been working on cleaning up a bit for them. I'm hoping to get a sofa out of the house when they come. It is big and takes up so much space. Then I want to move the living room around so that it is baby ready for movement right now the little man has a whole 6 foot by 6 foot space for that and I think it needs to increase plus his swing sits in the middle of the living room right now and I hate that!
We are having a play date tomorrow with an old coworker, fun. She has an 18 month old girl. It will be nice to see a little one who is a bit older to kinda know what I need to put away in here before we have a accident. Any way I should get going and wake my little man up soon cause he has another appointment later.
Oh I also missed my work out because of the time the appointment was booked for, what a piss off! Hmm what else. I finally got the extra side table out of the little mans room! WOOh now I just need the Mans parents to come and take all the extra clothing away and we will be set! They come this Sunday, so soon. I've been working on cleaning up a bit for them. I'm hoping to get a sofa out of the house when they come. It is big and takes up so much space. Then I want to move the living room around so that it is baby ready for movement right now the little man has a whole 6 foot by 6 foot space for that and I think it needs to increase plus his swing sits in the middle of the living room right now and I hate that!
We are having a play date tomorrow with an old coworker, fun. She has an 18 month old girl. It will be nice to see a little one who is a bit older to kinda know what I need to put away in here before we have a accident. Any way I should get going and wake my little man up soon cause he has another appointment later.
Saturday, February 05, 2011
Sad
So today I think I made the realization that my little fur baby needs to go. I love her so much she is my first baby but she is getting no attention and I have a really hard time taking car of her with the baby. I know that things will get better in time and allow me more time for her but that is a long ways away. So I have to give her up.
Maybe my sisters friend here wants a sweet little dog :) Then at lest I would know who she is going to and that it is a good person. Okay but really miss roxy has a few issues she gets sick often. Its not because there is anything wrong with her I have gone to the vet and they say nothing is wrong and she is totally healthy just maybe that its and allergy. But she has been on 12 different kinds of food and each one she still gets sick. She needs someone who has the time to really get to the bottom of the problem. Also this is no quality of life some times she wants to play but I can't play with her because of my little man and him needing attention.
It totally pains me to do this but she needs a new home. So sad. I'm not just going to give her to anyone I'm really going to look for the right fit. Plus I have yet to tell the man that I have made this conclusion. Any way I'm going to go and try and clean up a bit well my little man is sleeping. Oh by the way the little man is doing great! I think he might have a bit of a cold because he is coughing a lot and sleeping alot but I'm keeping my eye on him and making sure he is ok. He is almost 18 pounds and not even 3 months yet. Big little man. Any way really this time I need to get going.
Maybe my sisters friend here wants a sweet little dog :) Then at lest I would know who she is going to and that it is a good person. Okay but really miss roxy has a few issues she gets sick often. Its not because there is anything wrong with her I have gone to the vet and they say nothing is wrong and she is totally healthy just maybe that its and allergy. But she has been on 12 different kinds of food and each one she still gets sick. She needs someone who has the time to really get to the bottom of the problem. Also this is no quality of life some times she wants to play but I can't play with her because of my little man and him needing attention.
It totally pains me to do this but she needs a new home. So sad. I'm not just going to give her to anyone I'm really going to look for the right fit. Plus I have yet to tell the man that I have made this conclusion. Any way I'm going to go and try and clean up a bit well my little man is sleeping. Oh by the way the little man is doing great! I think he might have a bit of a cold because he is coughing a lot and sleeping alot but I'm keeping my eye on him and making sure he is ok. He is almost 18 pounds and not even 3 months yet. Big little man. Any way really this time I need to get going.
Friday, February 04, 2011
ouch ouch OUCH
So my arms feel like jello talk about not getting back into slow or what these ladies kick your ass like there is no tomorrow! I decided that I need to work out because of a few reasons they are as follows:
1) it is getting hard to lift my son his chair it is so heavy and I have zone upper body strength!
2) I hate going to the mall and not finding anything I like in my size
3) I hate the way I look in the clothing I do have
4) Most importantly I want to be able to play with my son, I want to be able to run, jump, skip and play with my son.
So the goal is not weight loss but it is an added benefit of working out, the goal is endurance and cardio strength so I can do all the things I want to do with my little guy. I'm also looking at joining a mommy and baby work out class but I think that will be in March. I need to get me on track and make it part of my world before I involve my little guy.
Today we are going to go shopping with a friend this afternoon also :) What fun! I'm totally not sure what we need or even what I can get but I think fruit is on the menu and maybe some meat. Course baby stuff is always a good call too :) God my arms hurt did I mention that. Man like they burn. LORD
Any way I think my men will be coming down soon one is in the shower and the other is still sleeping. Time to get ready for them.
1) it is getting hard to lift my son his chair it is so heavy and I have zone upper body strength!
2) I hate going to the mall and not finding anything I like in my size
3) I hate the way I look in the clothing I do have
4) Most importantly I want to be able to play with my son, I want to be able to run, jump, skip and play with my son.
So the goal is not weight loss but it is an added benefit of working out, the goal is endurance and cardio strength so I can do all the things I want to do with my little guy. I'm also looking at joining a mommy and baby work out class but I think that will be in March. I need to get me on track and make it part of my world before I involve my little guy.
Today we are going to go shopping with a friend this afternoon also :) What fun! I'm totally not sure what we need or even what I can get but I think fruit is on the menu and maybe some meat. Course baby stuff is always a good call too :) God my arms hurt did I mention that. Man like they burn. LORD
Any way I think my men will be coming down soon one is in the shower and the other is still sleeping. Time to get ready for them.
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