Two Parter

Part One: The creation of the dog bed.

So Yesterday I went to my friends to introduce my new puppy to her new puppy. My friend has this cute little dog bed. I think to myself Roxy (my puppy) needs a dog bed, I have a kennel but no lovely little bed.

My friend recently started swing and sent me this link to how to make dog beds.
Dog Beds



Here is my results with puppy included :)


So cute!

Part Two:

okay this is the venting part, so if you are not interested in reading something about venting move on now!

TRAFFIC:
Okay I remember thinking traffic is not that big of a deal its just people moving from here to there and so what I am clam and the master of the road. But the I think as the temperature drops and thing freeze and I believe that the average persons brain to freezes and people totally forget how to drive!

I swear it must be that but then I think about it and nope that's really not it cause people suck at driving in the summer to. People suck at driving in the city! I can't even begin to explain the udder stress I was in today just trying to get to the store for food! Someone was driving at 30km in a 80km zone and slipping all over the place and being stupid. I finally pass them and OH MY GOD you are a stupid person, on the phone talking away not paying attention to the road... big surprise! Man I am just pissed at this person and I keep on my way then this jack ass cuts me off going so fast that he almost hits me and my heart is just pounding and I am ready to cry and all I want to do is go home and sit in my warm house with no drivers!

Any way that is it and I am done venting now. Thank you for listening.

To my Lovely Sister

I know I am a day late and I know that is bad and yes your package will come but more then likely in the New Year. However from me to you HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

I Love you, and I miss you more. You are the best sister one could ever ask for. You are strong, amazing, funny, sweet, outstanding, beautiful and so much more to me!

I love you I love you I love you!

PS This is for you

I am Cooking Goddess!

So last night I made three items totally by scratch! I was so worried that it was not going to turn out as I am not really much of a cook but my god I am good!

Thank you Rachael Ray and your website for the Wonderful Meal! I highly recommend you try it out!

Item One:
Dijon Tarragon Chicken
http://www.rachaelray.com/recipe.php?recipe_id=857

Item Two:
Rice Pilaf
http://www.rachaelray.com/recipe.php?recipe_id=13

Item Three (the most tasty and amazing YUM)
Roasted Squash Vegetable Medley
http://www.rachaelray.com/recipe.php?recipe_id=575

So for a yummy home cooked meal that speaks of winter but tastes of spring please give it a try and let me know what you think! So good

I think I will try and make something new at lest once a week. Now that I have a man in my life it seems like I want to cook more again! Also I was inspired by a movie :)

Happy Cooking : )

T'was the Night before Christmas

And all through the house a creature was steering... no it wasn't a mouse! With Me in her Pj's and the man at work. I am just settling down for a movie and then a nap. When all of the sudden what was it I here a little text message and some reindeer? I rose to the phone to see whats the matter. To find a little note with hugs and kisses pitter patter.

And now for some more writing...cause I can't go on with that any more but I think I did a pretty good job. :)

It is Christmas Eve encase you missed that and I am over joyed with how the end of this year is working out! I can't remember the last time I was this happy!

I wanted to up date really just to wish everyone in the world a very Merry Christmas and a New year full of joy, peace, prosperity, love, kindness and hugs :)

Good Night to one and all :)

Its been a while

Well long time no write again! gee I need to get better at this!

So Everything is shinny and new... New job! Woop.... New Puppy! So cute and sweet ... New Man! Who is lovely and amazing and such a fantastic person I'm so lucky to have met him (its only been 2 months :P ) New new new.

I'm very happy and filled with joy this last little while it all seems to be falling into place ever so nicely. I'm over joyed with the out comes that have been coming my way. Now if only the money situation could improve as much as all this other stuff has that would be ideal!

I miss my family and will be missing them through this Christmas I'm not going to make it home this year, and that makes me a little bit sad.

What else? hmm well life is good, I want to start cooking thanks to a movie! It was so all inspiring to watch someone cook through a book and enjoy it and say YUM all the time. Most of the time with the food I make its like oh ok that’s alright but its not amazing!

Any way I'm just updating cause I thought it was totally time and now I'm off to work and play.

The Weekend is my Friend!

Well I take forever to up date... what is going on in the world of me? Well still working at the same crappy job but today was fantastic so that is really good. I am kind of seeing someone and I am not totally sure where that will all go but we are to be hanging out tomorrow night. He is a nice guy but I'm not 100% sure that this is 'the one'. I have been applying for jobs everywhere I can and I keep getting the 'your personality is amazing and you have such a great spirit but not the experience we are looking for' thing and that is so frustrating its not even funny.

I had a doctors appointment that is kind scaring the crap out of me but at the same time things could be worse and I like to look on the positive side of life for the most part. I am only negative about some things and even then I try to spin it in a way that is good. I bought the BEST smelling lotion today, and the most expensive I might add, but I'm kind of in love with it so I'm happy about that.

I wish we could go back to the days when money wasn't the center of all things!

I went to a small town in the south of Alberta to do some training (teacher M haha love it) and on my way home stopped in a small town that is famous for the most silly thing ever. Facebook friends stay posted for photos that I hope to up load soon! I want to go back to school and become a teacher! But I can't afford to do this so that sucks balls! I feel like my lifes work is a calling between Social Work and Teaching both of which don't make the money I need to live, always fun!

I entered a contest to have my student loan paid off and haven't won yet but still have two weeks of draws, please every person out there send me some positive vibes on this one because that is LIFE CHANGING!

And I think my random thought that was ment to be a good post is done now.

so lonely

Well its been awhile yet again and I didn't win the big prize but am thankful for be one out of 98 people who where finalist!

I write tonight because I had a sudden smack in the face of how lonely I am. I drove around so much today just wasting gas because I didn't want to sit at home alone it felt almost unbearable! The thing about life that is the oddest to me is that we are all so really truly alone and we all strive to have a connection in our lives if only for a second or a hour. It is very silly to me that I am so uncomfortable some times being alone. I mean really it should be alright.

I sick of being alone! I'm sick of doing everything by myself! I'm sick of wondering why I feel like the only person on the planet who feels so out of touch with people and the world. I'm sick of wondering who I am and when I lost myself. I'm sick of it!

I just ahhh I just want what we all one someone to spend the days with, the time with, the moments with. Not even a guy in my life but people who are true and there for me. My closest friend is all in family mode with her boyfriend living with her, and then everyone else I knew just is no longer around. You know it sucks, where are friends where is this thing that we are all suppose to have. Am I the only one with nothing? bah

Ok so I'm feel sorry for myself tonight and yes I am a little down these days because I feel like I'm missing the point to all this. I feel like I have lost hope, and that is a destusting feeling, I dream of so much and I have so much faith in things but right now bottom of the freaken world. It just seems hopeless and I wonder some times what the hell am I doing with my life. NO I'm not going crazy, although some times I wish I would at lest then I might have someone to talk to.

Just feel sorry for myself and wondering what the heck is the point right now. knock it up to a shity day.

Tomorrow will be better, I know this! Today is a write off and tomorrow is something I am waiting for. But I dread the end of the weekend I hate my job, although I'm getting sent to Regina next week which is pretty cool.... why you might ask well that is because I have personally been asked to go train the people there on how to manage there job and do all that I do. I have developed this crazy little 101 guide and its pretty great. But here is the great thing and more then likely also why I'm feeling this way. Is no one cares, not my boss, not my ED, not anyone, its just like yes you are going good for you that you where specially requested, who the fuck cares...no one. I can't wait to leave that place its so evil and such negitivity it sucks out my spirit and makes me THIS! This sad, lonely, uninspiried mess of a person, isn't it lovely. AHHH

Good news, I will have an interview coming up for a job I truly want at a place that really believe in and I want this more then anything I can even taste it! I have been trying so hard to find another job and it just doesn't seem to be in the cards for me. I'm meant to be torn to pieces by those women to the point where I am a mindless person with no hope, and alone.... SUPER GREAT! :(

Any way I'm alive. and that is my update and now I am going to lay in a dark room under a mountain of covers and hope that this all just goes away!

Good night world.... Sleep sweetly.

Four Months Later

So I finally am updating.... it has been a long time. Still happy in my new place, in fact more happy then ever, in love with it, great location, great feel, great just great!

Work is not so good but its been like this for a while so I'm just moving forward looking for that new job that will light me up again.

Today I post because I have two excellent stories.
The first is fast... I am a finalist in a contest and might win a really amazing prize you can bet if I do I will post about that more to come after Friday!

Second... I went back to BC some time ago and brought back with me a bike, a old rusty bike which I have put back together and is working well. Today I decided to get out on it and go for a ride. Towards the end of my street I live on is not the best area. Abandoned homes, scary looking people, BIG dogs that bark as you ride by and at the end of it a field which I sat in and just enjoyed the sun and my last summer day off. Then kept on my way and found this house. This very odd house in the middle of a sad area.


So I can't load the photo's I created an album on my facebook, if we are friends you can see them there if not just know it was something else!

Any way will try to up date soon and not go so long :P

The long wait over!

Well I sit here in my new apartment alone! Finally alone. It took a long time and some super hard moments. It took realizations that you need to be patient and wait. But its here and I'm almost unpacked....I think I should be able to finish tomorrow. This past month has been full of disappointments, joy, stress, and long days. I hope that this new start brings many wonderful things to it.

I am recovering from a cold and a big head ache that I have had all day and will not seem to go away. I am on the look out for a new job now officially. I just need that part of my life to get better and then I will be in the place that I want to be. The place of true bliss and joy and happiness! The future looks bright and exciting! Can't wait.

Any way just a little up date to let any one who reads this know I'm alive and well and in my new place! WOOP

Until soon.

To Wait

Well I have offically moved and am homeless staying with a friend for 18 more days... which seems like forever at this point. I feel like such an ass having to stay with someone. Thank god for good people still in this world. I have given my sercurity deposit for the new place and I look forward to getting in there and making it my own.

Work is going alright, it is work... I am still looking for that great job that fits with my skills and what I am looking for but have yet to find it. Tonight has been a pretty slow night just watching some TV and being cozy in my PJ's.

On the weekend I did a lot! I went to the Symphony which was both amazing and breath taking and I went and saw "He's just not that into you" which I totally recommend to everyone out there. I noticed myself laughing a lot but also going oh shit I've totally been THAT girl... which then made me laugh more. It is a must see and me being the totally mushy girl that I am was all like ahhh how sweet at the end. It was worth the hipe and the wait!

Any way just a little up date to let all you readers know I'm not living in a box on crack lane... woooohhhooooo

Night

Judgement Day

So yesterday I started moving some of my things. The stuff I can fit in my car and today will be more packing the last of my things that can be packed, first need more boxes. But its Monday and the Tenant Landlord place is open but not till 8:30am. So 15 mins to wait and wonder what will be the out come of all this craziness over the weekend. Once I have spoken with them I will have them call the owner of the home and explain what my rights really are. Then ask to have them ask her to call me via cell phone and discuss what will happen from here. Then she can pass the informaiton on to my roommate.

So I sit and wait in anticapation, one of the places I was reffered to call is open now so I'm going to call them first and see what they have to say about the whole situation. Or if they just tell me to call the local service here in town. I know I want to be out by the end of the week at the latest any way and tonight over today will be the majority of the move. This is stressful and its not helping my health choices in food. Yesterday through all the stress I had a begel, a cup of yougurt, and two chicken wraps. Thats it. Not enough food to keep my body feeling well so today my whole body hurts and I am more tired then ever. Good times.

more to come.

The Strom Part two

So the police cam and I have until Monday to figure out what the hell I want to do. So far I have somewhere to stay for the month a friend who is willing to help me move all my stuff for a fee and I'm going to look at a storage unit tomorrow and on hold with Uhaul right now... boo to hold!

My Friend who said I could stay with said I could also store my things at her house but I think thats a bit to much just clothing and bathroom items would be the best. Then I don't have to feel at home I just have to know I'm staying with her until Feb 24/25... lord. What the hell was I thinking.... So I think what I will do is go and try and find some more boxes tonight pack as much as I can. I'm going to check out the rental places tomorrow, maybe rent one. Then Go to work for 3 hours come home move my big stuff that evening with my friend. Bed, Sofa, hope chest, and maybe a truck load of boxes. What ever is left move in my car. Take Monday off move everything out come in clean the place cause I'm nice and then take me and my clothing to my friends for the month. I don't really want to be here with the Massive anger in the air. Its not mentally healthy!

On a Highlight I go the phone call about an hour ago that I got the place that I want on Monday I will go to sign all the papers :D I'm pretty happy about that!!! Really I'm totally flipping out but the excitment is small as I have a lot to do. Sooooo I guess I should get my ass in gear and start doing some stuff. I have a tone of little crap that I want to pack up and get into a box... its going to be a long few days! woop And the joy of explaining this to my boss! FUN

The Strom Part one

So things are bad, really really BAD! I just got off the phone with the police who are now going to be coming to the house to mediate this because she said "Get Out, tomorrow your out, you have no rights" So I said fine I'm calling the police she said go ahead. So I did... and now they are coming. I was told to let her know they are on their way here and then stay away from her. Ok

So in stress and frustration I go to smoke leaving the door open and then it slams behind me. So here I sit stressed, upset, not totally sure what the hell is going to happen in the next 24 hours and ready to pull my hair out. Waiting for the police is just peachy.

So my friend said I can come stay with her and store my stuff there until next month and I think I might take her up on the offer as I do not want to be any where near this place right now. I just wish it wasn't happening this way and I'm worrying that she is right even though I know shes not its just scary. We will see how the rest of the night goes and I am going to start packing some things.

Till later

Dear God

Totally the Clam before the storm, I gave my notice yesterday. A copy to my roommate and a copy for her mom the Landlord. Well giving it to her she says "well I'm your land lord so my mom doesn't need it. hmm when did that change? odd so in the letter is says I will not be paying rent for the month of February as per our first agreement verbally stating I was paying First months and Last months rent. And right then Anger, nothing said but you can see it. So mad.

So I do a ton of research and am ready for this. Once I'm home later.. ding ding Let it begin Anger BIG MASSIVE Anger. She says "I am changing the locks on Sunday you are not aloud to live her for the next month". Umm NO sorry I know my rights and the law really well at this point we have a verbal contract binding in a court of Law! So fine this is about 12:00am not the best time to talk late tired anger not the greatest kind.

So this morning make many more phone calls, no one around as its the weekend. Call the police to get guidance on what I do if she should change the locks on me... Agenst the law! HAha thats right agenst the law. The police would come open the premises and I would have to move all my stuff out... ok and then I'm homeless for a month. Great

So This month I think is going to a hard month I am 100% sure I wish I could afford to just move out to where ever today but I have no notice. So I can take them to court after for damages. hmm god Okay I just needed to document this somewhere and get my barrings together before I go talk to her and let her know I would like to speak with her mother. okay wish me luck

Fun times fun times... mental note NEVER LIVE WITH ANYONE! AHHH