Toy Box and Sushi

The toy box has been finished!!! It looks great and I am totally happy with it. I also made sushi for the first time ever and I must day it turned out amazing!


The finished product complete with soft top for a cousion seat. :)

Box open


Sushi :) YUM!
And that is really all I have to say for the night I just wanted to update and show off my stuff.

Just tired

Well it is late and for some reason I don't really feel like sleeping but I am tired. My little man is down for the night, well at lest 6 hours and the Man wont be home for another hour. I was going to make a pillow for the little man's new toy box but I'm not sure if I want to make it the way I was going to I think it might not work well so now I need to think about it a little bit. You see I am making something like a body pillow to go on the wall because I couldn't make a bench. So the pillow will act as a pho bench piece. I thought it was rather smart but now I am stuck on one part.

I was thinking of using a thick foam piece and then some soft pillow stuffing but I think if I put the soft stuffing in front of the thick foam that eventually the soft foam will all go to one side for the pillow and it will look silly... need to think a bit more about this one and if I just want to make a cylinder pillow that is all soft, I think that might work better. The toy box is almost totally done I just need to buy the hings and then put the top on and it will be finished. How exciting!!! Then I can get the ugly white bin out of my living room and have a love little toy box. :) Not that he is interested in toys at all but at lest I wont have to look at the ugly bin any more :)

I will post a picture of the finished product once its done. What else, well it was lovely and warm for the past few days and we got out and went for walks and enjoyed the sun and it was great but winter has decided to give us what for again and it is presently snowing and -5 going to be -18 by morning, boo! Then for the next few days cold cold cold again, it sucks cause then we get stuck inside. Oh and we have a snow fall warning now, fun times! Oh well at lest its not New York or Boston I feel so bad for them 19 inches in NY and 30 inches in B town... Freaken 30 inches thats nuts, that is way to much snow in 24 hours! poor people.

Any way I should get going.... good night

Update time

Well the man didn't end up going back out of town he told the people that it was to much with a new baby. I wish he would have just taken then job and trusted that it would all work out because I think he really wanted the opportunity but he didn't and he asked them if he could start in a month or so once the little man is more into a schedule and it is easier to get him sleeping and stuff at night. But I think its going to take a bit more then a month. Its been two months to get him to sleep at 11pm for 6 hours. So now what? Well I think he is mad at me because I'm the one who couldn't handle taking care of the little man. It seems like all we do is get mad at each other these days, its so hard with all the changes I think its just so much.

Now he is starting to look again, there is one place he would like to work a bit closer to my family which I would like but who knows whats going to happen. All I know is we need to get better at treating eachother nicer. Because other wise I'm not sure whats going to happen I think if we keep on this path within a year I'm going to be a single parent because I will not want to be so unhappy any more. I don't want that but its really hard. He says he is just chronically tried and thats not helping his mood but he sleeps as much as I do. Maybe he is depressed and just don't know it. But I don't know what to do any more there is so much to do and I need his help and support. Just as much as he needs sleep. He also needs to spend more time with his son. I told him that and he said "I just spent a half hour with him". Umm ok wooo a half hour yeppie sickpy! I spend every waking moment with him, he knows me he loves me, he knows I will make him happy and take care of him when he is sad. The worse part is he will start crying and I will take him from dad and he will stop. That shouldn't happen daddy should be able to calm him down.

Any way I really did just need to bitch, he is a good dad he just needs to spend some more time with his son and try to not be so cranky with me. He just drives me so crazy and its not making me feel very nice lately. Any way I should work on getting some things done well the little man is sleeping. I have a toy box to finish for him.

Here we go again

So the Man came home on Thursday and it didn`t go so great I still didn`t get a lot of sleep but then over the past two days I have gotten to sleep a good amount. But he leaves again tomorrow this time only for three days then is back again and works and we will see if he is going to keep doing this. I am firmly not in favour of this continuing but we will see what happens. I think he knows that its not a good idea but wants to see how it goes. They way I have heard him talking to his parents it sounds like he doesn`t think its the right time to take a role like the one that he has been testing out.

Any way the little man slept for 6 hours straight last night! Then 5 and another 5 before he was up and moving around. Now we just need to work on getting him to sleep for 8 hours and then another 5 and maybe some day soon 12 hours straight.

Any way wish me luck over the next few days and I should get going.

So exhusted

I'm totally exhausted today and just want to go to bed but I have a feeling my little man is going to wake up in an hour so I don't think I should go to bed because I will be super cranky getting woken up that quickly. This has been a long few days but the Man comes home tonight!!! WOOP so happy I'm not sure how tonight will go if I will get the bullshit I worked and drove comment but he can tend to the little one tonight cause I need a break!

Speaking of the little one I can now let him sleep through the night so if he is not up soon I might relocate us in the bed room cause I'm super sleepy. I think he might be waking now but we will see hes been sleeping for a few hours already. I guess they just worry about them until they reach 15 pounds and well he is now 16 so wooh to that. My little man is getting so big so fast.

Any who I'm out for now.

I hate this part!

Well I`ve been alone with the little man now for three days and have two more to go and I am exhausted! I haven`t had a break and I feel like I might pull my hair out. The Man is away right now trying something out and I`m alone doing everything and its fucking hard and I hate it. He and I have to have a very real conversation about this because I can`t do this again its way to much and with no break not even a little one its way overwhelming.

Today he has been especially fussy and I feel like I want to go for a long walk off a short cliff. I need help I need the Man, I have no idea how mothers do this on there own. The shitty part, oh yes it does get worse, is he comes back only to work for three days and then I think he is leaving again. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK ....FUCK So not only am I doing this now but even when he is back still no real break. I want to go way for 5 days well he does everything and see how happy he is. This is bull shit and not something I signed up for!

Okay so he is having a hard time sleeping right now so I need to get going. One exciting thing tho is I`m writting this well laying on my tummy! I haven`t done this since before I was with child and I totally missed it. Any way I need to go.

I`m so burnt out :(

Boo!!

So it looks like next week I'm going to be acting like a single parent! Not happy at all. The Man is testing out a job in another city and will be gone Monday to Thursday, gross! Not only that but he is working today and until Sunday, so we will only have the time when he is here to get stuff done because my little man likes to take up a lot of my time! Not fun! I need someone to come and help us out for a few days, any takers?

I have three baskets of laundry to put away and about four more baskets to do. Bottles to make, dishes to do, house to clean and the only thing that does get done is baby taken care of. Although I guess right now I could be cleaning or something but I really wanted to up date. I'm so not happy about the Man leaving it really is going to make life hard for some time. Plus I have appointments to go to and things to do and now I have to take the little man with me which means everything will take more time to get done. lord boo!

Any way I just needed to vent now its off to get some things done.

Update Update :)

So we went to weight the little man the other day and he is 14 and 1/2 pounds! Crazy, I saw a 4 month old that was half his size today! Lord I'm going to have one big little guy. Today I got an email from some who I thought was my best friend. Last year she told me I was the most negative person she knew and that we no longer could be friends because I was a bad influence one her and her family. I laughed a lot because I do for sure have negative moments but I am pretty full of joy for the most part. Lately I'm super cranky because of the lack of sleep and a bit more negative then usual but as a general whole I'm super happy :)

Any way I was a little shocked by it and said my peace to her but I really wanted to tare her a new one and just tell her off because I was truly hurt by what happened. I am interested to see if she writes back knowing her she will and it may be rude but I'm ready for that.

The little man is super sleepy hungry and sleepy, I think he is having a growth thing happening because he is eating a lot and sleeping a lot. He doesn't like being on his back right now for some reason so I have him on his side. He is doing well and is super happy for the most part but has gassy moments and some really bad days. But I still think he is perfect and love him more and more every day!

Any way I should get going I have some things I need to try and do before he wakes up

The end of the year

Well 2010's end is upon us and last year at this time I would have never thought that I would be here with all these changes. I now live with a wonderful man and have been blessed with a little man and we are looking at moving to a smaller community. I would have never thought that this is what life would be like last year.

So I am thankful for the changes and the amazing blessings I have gotten this past year. It has been a good year. This up coming year is going to be beautiful! I look forward to all the new things and getting to spend a year with my lovely little man and growing with my new family. I look forward to the future and what is to come. Welcome 2011~!! well in an hour.... :)

What else the most interesting thing and wonderful thing. So the Man loves coffee and recently enjoyed drinking McDonald's coffee. So as a general whole I think McDonald's is bad and no good for people or society as a whole but they sure to make the BEST cups ever! I took a hard corner and his coffee went flying out of the cup holder on to the floor of the car and all I can say is CRAP! I'm thinking shit coffee every where so I pull over and put my hazard lights on an try to clean the mess. Only to find all the Coffey still in the cup and the lid fully on not letting anything out. I then said out loud WHOOO thank you McDonald's for creating the freaken best cups and lids ever. Awesome!

Any way i just wanted to up date a little my little man is sleeping but might wake up soon so time to get ready for him :)

Happy New Year to one and all and may you be as blessed as I am.

I need a vacation!

I need a vacation I think I might go on strike and take off cause I feel like I have an extra shot of crazy lately. Also I think my hormones are still a little bit out of wack cause I feel totally off! Not so much fun :(

My little man is growing every day now he has officially grown out of number 1 dippers and almost all of his 3 month clothing! FYI he is only a month and a half old!!!! So he is wearing 6 month old clothing. Some are way to big others fit perfect so who knows.

I was totally concerned about his hearing but trust me he can hear!!!! WOOP I was an evil mommy and tested when he slept he is just picky about what he responds to. Any way daddy is almost done feeding baby so that means I'm up and its bath time.

Woop

Birthday!!!!

To the most wonderful, outstanding, lovely and amazing sister every.... April :)

Happy Birthday!!!!


I love you so much and you are fanstastic!!!

Twas the night before Christmas

All through the house... This is my little mans first Christmas and I don't think he is to excited as he doesn't really know what is going on. So here is the question ... do I tell my son about Santa and let him believe to only find out he is not real OR do I tell him about the real Santa and the spirit of him and the truth?? I'm thinking the truth. But I'm not sure many people will like that. Like the Mans mom was all what is Santa going to bring you? Well Santa did get him a few things but still its the spirit of Santa but mom bought it and I think its better to be honest with him. hmmm not sure.

What else? I'm looking at flights to maybe go home cause my trip didn't work out. I miss my family! blah any way I'm going to get going the little man might wake up soon to eat. Merry Christmas eve :)

Growing more!

Today we went to weight our little man and he is weighing in at 13 pounds even! And height is 24 inch :) woop The only crappy thing is that he is getting hard to carry in that stupid seat! Like super hard! We have been walking almost every night of the week for at lest an hour, in the mall... stupid mall but I like getting out and I need the exercise. I'm going to start going to the gym soon once I can figure out a good time to go. Maybe 11 -12 or something like that. Who knows

What else? I'm still pissed about not making it home it sucks balls! I starting to think more and more that someone in my family is totally crazy and just about the biggest liar I have ever met. So frustrating!

Any who I'm going to get going my little man is being fussy and wants some attention.

Boo!

I hate winter! Because of stupid winter I didn't get to go home we got about an hour out and the weather turned to shit. I cried for almost half way back because I was so upset that we where turning around to come home. I really wanted to go to see my family...well mainly my sister. But still it sucked ass The Man had to drive because I was such a mess. SUCKED and SUCKS still!

So I sent all the presents home yesterday and they should be there by Thursday at the latest but more then likely sooner. So what am I doing? Nothing really being sad a little because I really wanted to be home. Taking care of my little man and my main man. Thinking about cooking a turkey for Christmas but its hard to do this with the baby because he likes attention during the day and if he doesn't have enough he cries! lol

I'm thinking of making a trip to the mall to day and do some shopping for me but we will see at present I'm feeling a little bit lazy and just want to stay in my pj's but I might get motivated to get out.

Oh and my little man has the such dry skin it is so bad he flakes all over the place when I take his clothing off and his head is covered in dry skin and I'm worried that will turn into cradle cap. No body wants that! So what do I do, how can I put lotion on his head and in his hair, gross! I know they say it will go away but its not the same its just dry skin. Any ideas would be great.

Any way its early and everyone is still sleeping so I think I might make some breakfast and wake them up :)

I`m coming home

Or hopefully if the roads are ok we are going to be going. I really want to introduce my little one to everyone well he is little. The plan is to leave Saturday night at around 7pm travel part way (less people on the road!). Stay the night in a hotel and then travel the rest of the way. Hopefully we will be able to go through the short way because it saves us about 4 hours but what ever is the safest we will go. Then we have to hope all goes well and we can get home so the Man can get to work.

My little man is super cranky lately I think he has bad gas some times but at lest he is sleeping through most of the night. I think our trip might mess things up for him for a little bit but hopefully he doesn`t notice :)

I am a little afraid of how far we have to go but I`m sure it will be fine. Its such a long drive and there really is nothing through some of it. 3 hours of nothing which is a little scary in the winter with a baby and a little dog and of course me who has issues with the cold. So lets hope it all goes well and that we can get there and back. Any way thats all for now tomorrow a shopping trip and packing are in order then Saturday a party :) woop

Can't wait for warmer weather!

So there are a few things I hate about the winter. The number one item is that I can't spend any time out side in the winter because I have a problem with the cold. I can't walk outside and I really need to walk a bit more to get my legs back in shape and help trim my tummy back down (even though I am already in all my per prego clothing).

What is the alternative to walking outside? Going to a mall and walking there. That sucks ass might I add because there are a million jerks in the mall that could care less if I have a baby with me or that are rude and I just hate the mall its to much! To many people, to much noise, to many lights, and blah its just bad there but its the only place I can go for a good walk.

So last night I went to one of the big new malls and the other thing I now hate is creepy people! This lady "bumped" into me three times to say how cute my baby was and tried to touch him. Err keep your hands away from my baby. And another person worked at on of the vendors in the middle of the mall grabbed the stroller and pulled it towards his booth and I tore him a new ass whole. I yelled at him and told him he needed some common manners and that in Canada you don't just grab peoples strollers to pull them over to try and sell them shit and if he touched it again I would consider it self defence to punch him out. He looked scared after that and he should have been. Never doubt a mother! I would have fucked him up!

Any way that is all for now my little man is upset so time to go.

Mt little butter ball

He is a big as a turkey at thanksgiving or chirstmas! 11lbs 9oz and growing! We went to see everyone at work today and he made all the ladies fall in love with him. Even the not so nice accounting guy thought he was cute and had a big grin on his face when I showed him off.

I gave him a pho-hawk today it was totally cute but his hat messed it up :P Better that he is warm then looking all fly! Its been really nice here lately and it looks like we only have one day of cold weather this week which is nice.

Any way the Man needs some help so I should get going. I just wanted to update and let the world know that I have a butter ball and I love him more then anything in this world!

Weight gain

So today I took my little man to weight him today just to see how he was doing and he gained almost a pound he is now 11lbs 1.9 oz getting bigger and bigger already I know time is going to fly and he will grow so fast. He is already lifting his head really well. He isn't catching finger movement with his eyes yet but he is looking around more and more. He doesn't like the sun shining in the car when he is trying to sleep and he likes being held when he has gas.

He is just so amazing and I am so in love with him it is not even funny he is just so perfect. What else? I have to finish up Christmas stuff soon and I am going to take my little man into work to meet all the ladies. :) He is going to be a lady killer I can feel it plus with his parents amazing good looks its hard not to attract all that attention ... hehe

Any who I just wanted to up date about him gaining weight, we have an appointment next week to see how he is doing I will up date again soon.

2 weeks tomorrow

Well my little boy is 2 weeks old tomorrow and I am feeling better and better as the days go by which is fantastic and I can't wait to feel totally better. He is sleeping more and more over the night which is good and I look forward to him being more awake so we can do stuff together like more tummy time or play or anything really other then watch him sleep :P

I'm super sleepy lately last night I slept through a feeding which is totally crazy. I feel like I have a million more times energy then when I was with child which is nice but at the same time when I'm sleepy I am exhausted and have a hard time functioning.

I think I'm going to try and decorate for Christmas this weekend at least get the tree up so it can be ready to be decorated and finish up the stockings that I made. Any who I need a nap so I`m going top head before my little man`s next feeding :)

Belly Button

Today Mr. Nicholas lost his umbilical cord and he officially has a belly button! 12 days old and already things are changing so fast. He is keeping us awake at night and sleeping all day. I have so much to get done that I feel like I can`t sleep when he is but I really need to start sleeping when he is because I`m not doing so hot on the energy front.

Oh so something amazing!!! I have been wearing stretchy pants for the past 5 months because all my pants stopped fitting, it sucked balls. But today for kicks I wanted to try on my jeans just to see how far I needed to go in order to get back into them. Guess what??? They FIT!!!!! HAHAHAh I had a baby and lost a tone of weight and can wear my jeans again. I haven`t had jeans on for months and months and they went on no problem! How amazing and fantastic. They are a little tight but not to bad at all.

My body still hurts a lot at moments but its getting better. Next week I`m going to plan to drop into work to show off my little man :) I just have to call and let them know. It will be our first out and about of the house. We have been out just he has waited in the car with me or the man cause I`m really not wanting to get my little man exposed to too much. But I think we are ready to start slowly getting out of the house. I going to try and join and mom and baby walking group too. Fun times.

Any way I just wanted to up date and let you all know how wonderful he is and how totally in love I am with him. What a wonderful joy!!!