Something is happening

I have been seeing this guy for a little while now and I think I'm starting to really like him. I'm not sure what we are doing yet or if we are even really dating but I like him a whole lot. Last night we spent talking and laughing and falling asleep in each others arms it was beautiful. There is something very mysterious about him and I find that very intriguing. I hope that he will make some kind of commitment some day because I can not keep going on like this.

I am alone for the holidays, I was to be going back to my home town but at the last min that changed. I'm not totally sure what I will do yet, but I would like to thank all the people I know for the kind thoughts and invites to join them. I do not want to be a burden so I think I will just stay at home. I think I'm going to start making my own thing up because I don't want this to happen next year. You know its been more then a year since I have seen my parents and it does not seem that they care all that much. At lest this is home my mother is making it out to be.

I am feeling a little lost these days, its not a good thing, and I really want it to go away. I work tomorrow Christmas eve and I work, was not suppose to but am, didn't want to stay home and cry more, I think I have cried enough the last few days for a few years now. Any way I think I'm going to head out for a little bit here or do something any way. I would like to wish everyone in the world Happy Holidays and may you and yours be filled with joy.

I think my body is trying to tell me something

So I am now another year older, and I think that something is going on. I first had a really bad cold lost my voice and felt super dizzy all the time, thought I would totally better just in time for my big day. Then on that night started to feel sick. Spent last night in the No Urgent Emergency room although they made it seem like it was pretty urgent. Got an IV due to Dehydration and fever got released at like 4:30 or something. So much fun. I'm not totally sure what my body is trying to tell me but maybe its a combination of stress and not being as health, even though I thought I was doing great. I have 11 days until I get a week off which I'm hoping will be a nice change.

Any who I just wanted to update saying I'm alive, not so well but alive non the less. I hope I feel better tomorrow really need to be at work for a meeting man I just want to not feel so shitty and I really wish I had it in me to eat something. I feel hungry but I also feel like if I put anything in me its just going to be a bad idea. Need some soup that might be the easiest to get down. Any way I'm going to go now.

hehehehe fun

You Are Comet

A total daredevil, you're the reindeer with an edge! Why You're Naughty: You almost gave Santa a heart attack when you took him sky diving Why You're Nice: You always make sure the sleigh is going warp speed

Which of Santa's Reindeer Are You?

hee hee

Your Elf Name Is...

Sassy Slave O' Santa

What's Your Elf Name?

So sleepy!

I would not trade anything for last night, but I am more sleepy then I have ever been in my life. As you have guessed I'm not at my second job why you ask well thats because I'm running off of 2 hours of sleep right now and I know I need the money but I think my mental health and well being is a little more important then money. I might not be saying that later but for now I know its the right thing to do. I spend the best night ever sitting in my car with this person who has captured a great part of myself. I was up until 4 am talking and just enjoying the company of this wonderful person.

I have no idea where this will all go or what it means but I know I would not trade anything in the world for last night. It was more then fantastic! It was like a painting that will forever be engraved in my minds eye. I hope that this person wants to see me again I truly don't think that he would be that kind of person but all I know is I want to be in his presents again. I think that I am a little in over my head, but I like it! I say this because he is something wonderful and I have never been so overwhelmed before. I'm going to call my second job tonight a little later on to make sure I still go on Wednesday I hope that works out for the best but I will not know for sure until later.

I'm not sure what else to write at the moment, I am so sleepy I think I'm going to go lay down for a bit and hope not to fall asleep right away because I don't want to mess up my schedule to much. Any way I'm going to get going, will write more soon.

The last weekend of freedom

I start my second job tomorrow, who thought in my professional life that I would need a second job. Its not just about the money it helps but I really need something to distract me from the loneness in my life. I am just sick of being alone all the time at this point what a better way to avoid that then make ones self more busy then anything else. Tomorrow I don't even come home just from one job to another. I will not be home until after 10, come home sleep get up go to work. This will be my life for the next little while we will see how long I will be able to do this for before I go crazy but for now I'm going to give it a try and will see.

I am feeling really out of it these days and I'm not sure why or what I need to do to get things back on track I don't know what I even need. I know that working from 8am till 10pm with an hour break between does not sound like fun to me, when I know that hour will be spent in traffic! Hmmm the more I think about this it sounds like a stupid idea, I think I might start looking for a job that pays more! I think that might be a good idea any way I'm starting to have a hard time living where I live with whom I live due to work stuff. Its not working as well as I thought it would. We get alone fine and everything is great just the work stuff when that comes into play it makes this really hard!

Who knows will have to see what happens maybe I'll start looking around at whats out there and see what I can get somewhere else. I love my job but I just am not sure I can keep going on like this, its a little to much for me. Any way thats all for now I'll write more soon.

Enjoying a Extra Day!

Today is an extra day off and it is great! I'm enjoying one extra day to just be clam and at ease with myself. I have to call the place where I might be able to get a second job tomorrow. I hope that all works out. I'm ready to take it on, its going to be very hard at first but I know that i need this to get on better.

I need a winter jacket so bad! Its starting to get cold here and I am getting to the point where I really need something. I only have fleece jackets right now and they are not that warm. I had an old winter jacket but I can't seem to find the other piece to it and I believe my ex still has it and seems that person will not even give me back the things I hold dear to me I really don't think I'm going to be getting back that any time soon.

Life is going alright it could be better but as for everything we always want more out of everything. I think it might be human nature as society has pushed it to be as such. I have been thinking a lot about how much longer I want to be this province and I am having a hard time finding an answer to that. Who knows any more? Does not seem like I do. Just kind of sitting waiting for a sign. Any way I just wanted to add a little up date and give some joy to my day off and thats it really.

Wanted to update!

Well its been a while now and I thought I was due for an update. I had a good weekend pretty peaceful for the most part. I'm still thinking about what I should do with my life, things seem to be pretty crazy in my life and I just don't know what is up or down these days. Things are what they are and I'm starting to wonder what I should do more then ever now. On one hand I'm very happy on the other I feel like something is missing. I'm not feeling very well tonight! I have not been feeling all that great as a total whole these days. But thats alright I know its going to pass and I like to not think about it as I feel if you feed into the illness it might win.

I have been thinking about it a lot and I don't think moving anywhere is going to solve my money problems. Everything here is pretty cheep so I'm not total sure anything will help that but me making more money! Any way I think thats about all I have to say for now. Will write more some day soon!

Feeling the need

I have the desire to go back to my home province. I'm not totally sure why, but its been this way for a while now. The only thing keeping me here is my job, which I love! So I am happy in one area in my life thats better then none! I just don't think going back home is going to make a difference at all. I've been looking into jobs and thinking a lot about school but nothing seems to fit, I need to get another job here just to get by its starting to really drain my account living here, however the places where I would be willing to live are just as expensive and I would not be able to find a job like I have and even if I did would that be the fit? No idea, I know I'm looking for something I just don't know what.

The other day at work I had my first I hate my job moment and I was blown away by that, It was such a hard day and I was just overwhelmed and my head was spinning. I'm not sure how much I like it here, I mean its a city and its alright but I'm so lonely here thats not even funny I feel so disconnected from life sometimes. I am not sure what I should do. I think I want to go back but if I do what will that mean? what will it bring me? and is it what I should be doing? Nothing is going to change here, I will have two jobs soon be working so hard that I will feel like I'm going to break and have no life really. I just want to feel whole and I know right now that I don't for some reason.

I need something I wish the world would just hurry up and show me what that is.

Trying to figure this all out

I know that some times life just happens for a reason but I'm starting to wonder what its all about. Why have I been picked to be here and what is this all for. I think I'm a little down lately. It seems like life is out to bit me in the ass these days. I know the last few posting have been really positive and you know I've had some great times these past few weeks but it just seems like I'm waiting for something that is never going to happen. Its thanks giving weekend and I feel that I have much to be thankful for but the things that I really wish I had are not present in my life at this point in time.

I've been trying to get out of my norm and do somethings that I wish I was more like, it seems to be going well but at the same time it seems like its all just not going anywhere. I just wish so many things. I'm looking for a second job because funds are super tight right now, I wish life was just a little easier. I have this need to go somewhere and do something and just live a little bit. I feel like a bit of a drown lately, get up go to work, get up go to work, wend go for drinks, finally friday roles around and all the same shit all the time wanting to do something no one to do it with. Why not get another job make more money and at lest I'm not sitting around my house feeling low.

I am going to hope that this other job I applied for comes through and that I can make enough money to get by in a better way. Thats it for now.

Vroom Vroom

WOOO HOOOO Vroom Vroom!!!!!

Thats right people I have a car! I am so happy that it is not even funny. I have waited a very long time to get a set of wheels and now I have some! I love my car, and I am so happy I am doing all by my self!!! I feel like an adult its amazing! Any way I really just wanted to up date that, cause I am so freaking happy it is not even funny.

Also I might go on a date tonight, He said he just wanted to see me so that even if he is sleepy after working he does not care :P Woo, we will see where this goes no getting my hopes up. Thats it for now I might up date more.

I feel fantastic

So I wanted to update now well I'm still on cloud nine! I just had this fantastic night spent talking and laughing with this great person. It has been so very long since I felt so wonderful and full of joy and wonderment that I am totally just happy. This person has made me smile from ear to ear and I think this is the start of a very blessed relationship ... now do not get ahead of your self I don't mean like relationship like a partner but just in the general sense that it will be a very good something. As they left they said that I was great pretty much. I just feel fantastic there is no other word for it!

I am wondering when we will get the chance to hang out again but I'm hoping that it is soon because just being in this persons presents makes me feel joy. Its a little overwhelming and I'm not totally sure what to make of this yet and I'm trying to not let myself get carried away but man its just nice to have someone make you feel so darn good. Any who I just really need to shout my joy somewhere and this is the place that felt the most fitting. I think now I might try and go to bed but I think that might be hard because I feel so uplifted.

Just a little update

So the last few days I have been home sick, I hate being sick! BOO! But I think I might be getting better cause my voice is coming back and my head is not feeling so bad. I'm going back to work tomorrow for sure! I hate missing work I always feel so unless at home, I mean there is a lot to do here but I have just been sleeping and think that is what made me feel better. I'm happy I'm not coughing as much now or feeling as bad as I did earlier. So I'm mostly moved in and everything here is going nice so thats good I think soon I'm going to start looking into buying my car. Oh yeah I'm going to buy a car! I'm totally looking forward to shopping for that one!

any way I just wanted to update and let everyone know I'm alive and hopefully going to be well soon! Thats all for now, I will update again soon!

Well I have internet again!

So I have moved and now have internet again and thought I would up date. Its been a busy few days lots going on and everything seems kind of crazy at the moment but I think it might start to clam down here again very soon. I hope so at lest any way I would like some down time which I am sure that I will get very soon. I have been spending to much money as well and need to stop doing that, no more can be spent I had to have my computer fixed today to get my wireless to work My CD thing has been broken for a long time now and now I have a new one with DVD burner which is kind of cool.

I like the new place its nice so far and I have one more day off to get everything in order around here then its back to work and life again, this week and next week are short weeks so that is kind of nice. Four day work weeks always make me happy. But then it will be a while before I have anytime off like this again, I think I might go back to BC for thanks giving but we will have to wait and see cause I would like to buy a car and I might not be able to afford it once I do that but who knows have to weigh my options. Any way I think I'm going to go just wanted to up date and let all know I'm alive and well and with internet again! woot

Moving day has come!

So today is the day, I'm pretty well all packed up and ready to go, need to go pick up my truck from the place I rented it from and then me and my friend are going to load up my life again. I hope that this is the last time I will move in a while. I'm looking forward already to this day being over, I think its going to be a long one. I only have my friend until 11:30ish so my goal is to have the truck totally loaded and ready to go, then I think I will stay around here for a little bit and clean the place so I can sleep in tomorrow. Then I just have to come back and get my DD from my landlord and thats it done and done.

I'm going to be sleeping at the new place tonight so that is going to be really odd, a whole new space again new things to get use to and new kind of life to get use to also. I think I might start looking into buying a car but I have to get my stuff together first so that I know what I can afford. With insurance and gas and all that stuff I'm just not sure if the convince is worth it. I don't know I think I will make that decision more then likely in November. We will see, who knows. Any way I think I should run my friend is going to be here soon. Wish me luck today please. :)

Three Days and counting

So I have three days until I move, I'm starting to realize how much work I have to do around here before I'm ready for that. I got a bunch of stuff done today, but I need to do more because I am really in bad shape right now. There is so much that needs to be done and I was going to go buy some tape but I just don't feel like going anywhere today, I'm so blah and just want to stay home for the rest of the day.

I hurt my arm the other day and I'm having a hard time packing some of the heavy things cause it hurts when I try to pick them up, this is not good, it needs to be better FAST! Cause I have to pick up a lot of heavy stuff soon moving and all.

I'm going to miss my area that I live in everything is so easy to get to, but I am looking forward to having all that space. Also I might look into getting a puppy but I might wait on that one. Need to get everything else in order first. I am thinking these next few days are going to go by way to fast.

What else is going on? hmm not a whole lot. I think things might start getting busy in the next little while. I was suppose to volunteer today but it was to cold and rainny outside so I decided to not go, I feel kind of bad but at the same time yesterday they so did not need three people there so that makes up for not going. Any who I should get going back to work just needed a break from the packing.

So much to do so little time

Well this week is going by a little fast and a little slow at the same time. I have a lot going on this weekend coming up and have to figure out how I'm going to do it all. Then next week I only work 3 days and then I move! Crap I really need to kick my packing into high gear! There is so much I have to get done still and it seems like I'm putting it off a little too much maybe so this weekend I'm going to pack everything I do not need! To get it out of my way and into the boxes. I just really have to start packing my kitchen and other little things it does not seem like much to do.

I really just need to start disabling my life here at this place. I'm really looking forward to moving and can't wait to be in the new place and make it my own. I think I might pack a bit of my kitchen stuff tonight thats the next part. I need to buy some packing tape and then I can finish everything else. Looking around it does not seem like I have that much stuff but I know there is more then I really think there is. I have to start calling people too and canceling all my services changing address. boo I hate that part! But maybe I'll see if I can get a move on some of that tonight. Any who I just thought I would up date and thats all for now.

I will more then likely update one more time before I move but after that it might be a little while before I'm on again as I have to get a wireless connection thing before my computer will have internet again. so funfun! Wish me luck with that one I have no idea how they work!

Any way I'll try and update again soon.

Just wanted to up date!

Well not all that much is going on, just packing getting ready for my move I need to start calling people and changing my mailing address and phone number and all that jazz. That could take a little while there are so many places to call! But thats going to be in the near future maybe this weekend I will start calling! I have a good bye BBQ to got to this Friday for a co-worker, he is going to be missed a lot around the office! But I think it will be a lot of fun so I'm looking forward to that!

Not much else really going on just working and trying to get my life on track so that it does not feel like such a mess all the time. Any who I'm going to go just really wanted to let any one who reads this know that I am in fact alive!

Things are going

So I have been dreaming of the end of this week to get back into the grove of things and it did and I made it through! Thank god! I think this was the hardest freaking few weeks of my life now I need to get back to feeling good again and normal. I am going out for dinner tonight witch should be nice, I'm looking forward to getting together with these friends it will be nice to catch up. I hope that I am not putting them out. I always fear about stuff like that.

So today is the start of something I'm going to look into my gym for some new classes and I am going to start kicking my ass to get it into shape. I really want to be health. Not that I'm not all that unhealthy now but I just need to change things up a bit. I need to start packing to start getting ready to move. I'm looking forward to the move. Its going to be so good!

Any way I'm just wanting to up date and let everyone out there know I made it through the hard part of my life and now things can start being good again. WOOT!

Long weekend

Well its a long weekend three days off then back to work for three days for me then four days off. It will be nice to have a little time to myself I think I'm going to get a lot of packing done next weekend. Keep my mind busy! On the Saturday of next weekend I'm going to a friends house to visit that will be really nice, I can't wait!! I'm looking forward to that as I think it will be a great visit.

I am to be going to take care of a friends son today that should be good he has so much energy its amazing! I had a chance to go back to my home town this weekend but I was not able to go because I couldn't get the Tuesday off. Sucks! But I think I'm going to plan on going back for October for thanks giving. I will try to look forward to that! It will almost be a year since I have seen my parents at that point so it would be nice to see them again.

I gave my notice to move at the beginning of this month so I am moving for sure! Now I have to start packing my life up again. but I think this is going to be a move that I stay at this place for a long time. I think its going to be Great! Any way thats about all I have to say looking forward to getting next week over with so that life can go back to normal for a little while. We have had so many people off work that its crazy there right now. Well I hope this all goes the way I would like it to and that I have the strength to make it through all the stuff I go through in a week its been so stressful lately I think I'm burning out a little bit. So wish me the best :)

More new things

But this time I feel good about them :) I am going to be moving at the end of August to a beautiful large house, with a friend from work. I feel really good about this and am looking forward to a new place with more space. I will also be saving some money and that is fantastic. I have a feeling life will be getting back to normal again very soon. This week coming up and next week are going to be long and hard, we are going to have really low staff because everyone is on holidays. But I think it will be alright. I just want these next two weeks to go by so I can start packing and doing all that fun stuff. I get to paint my new place :) WOOT!

I can't wait to move I think this is the most positive I have ever felt about a move and it is a nice change. I'm going to join a gym with some of my extra money! Woot, all new wonderful things soon. I'm looking forward again to life. I just need to get through the next two weeks with no problems of facing all the stress I'm going to be facing. Wish me luck! I'm sure I will hold my head up and pull through it is just I know its going to be a challenge. But I love hard work and a challenge so this should be great. Ha well I do like a challenge but I just wish this was stuff that was a little easier.

Any who I just thought I would up date really happy about my move, I will try and write again soon, but it might be a while. Maybe next weekend as it is a long weekend. But will have to see. I might just try and pull through my two weeks before I update. Any way I'm going to go need to start unwinding so that I can sleep tonight.

Wishing for a simpler time

I find that being an adult has become far to complected, the ever day choices that we have to make are becoming to much for my brain to handle. Sometimes I just wish I could back in time to a simpler place where the choices I had to make where easy and clear. Yes maybe those choices also effected how your life would turn out but it didn't seem as big of a deal. Things that you knew you could live with because it was that much easier. I'm really not totally sure why I'm writing about this but I feel that I just need to consider what my future holds for myself.

I was thinking about going back to school and finishing my Bachelors degree but I'm not sure if thats the right path. I'm going to go to the workshop coming up and I'm hoping that this will help me in finding focus again. There are other things as well like should I stay in the city I live in or move back to my home province I miss being there. I miss my friends and being able to see my family when I want to. I just am not sure what the future has in store for me but I'm hoping its still something great.

Thats really all I have to say for now.

what a mood

Grezz am I ever in a mood today. I do not think I can begin to tell you how much of a bitch I felt like today. I felt like I snapped at lest 3 times today thats really bad, I got so up set for people interrupting today that I thought I would smack someone. At the end of the day I went into my bosses office and said "I'm really in a bad mood today and I want to kill the the clients at the moment I'm not going to but I really want to hurt someone. I just need to sit here and vent a little bit." She was really good at listening to me it was nice, then my co-worker came in and he had a bad day too. So we just sat in there and de-stressed a little bit.

I still feel like I'm going to snap but its not as bad as it was I'm just in a really bad mood, maybe sleep will help tonight, god for the sake of my clients it dame well better. Tomorrow is going to be such a long day and I am not looking forward to it. I was like a month ago but right now not so much. I'm really just err... I feel like I need another break again but I don't I just need to learn how to cope different.

Any way I just needed to vent a little bit and make myself feel not so bad about snapping. Will right again soon.

Life is busy

Well I have no more vacation time coming up any time soon, I have a few long weekends and so lieu time left to us but who knows when that will happen. My work week is over and I'm finding out how busy I'm going to be with this new job that I now have at work, along with my old job still. I've been finding it really hard to find a placement for a group of people this could posse to be harder then first thought, I might ask my sister for some pointers. I think she might be able to give me some good ideas.

So work and life are a little crazy again and on top of it all I felt like crap most of the week, I hope this feeling goes away soon. I have a lot on my plate and on my mind lately but its alright I can handle this. Hmm what else is going on? Not to much really just hanging out doing what I need to do to get by. I am thinking about moving into my friends house into her basement because rent will be way cheaper, but I'm not sure about it yet so we will have to wait and see.

Any way I'm going to go and think about what to do for the rest of the night. I was going to watch a movie with a friend but I'm not sure because its so hot and I don't feel so good, but who knows. Any way I'll write again later.

Bitter Sweet

Well My sister and my nephews just left on there journy back to my home land and I'm a little heart broken to see them go. I don't think I have had the need to cry in a long time but this time I was a little baby. It just made me relize how much I'm missing them and how I wish they where closer. The hardest part about being so far away is that I'm staying because I love my job and the thought of leaving that behind right now does not sit well with me. But I wonder if I will ever get ahead by staying where I am.

The only reason I was alright with them leaving is that now my back will not hurt when I get up in the morning because I get my bed back. Other then that there was nothing happy about them going. However I did get some good pictures and some excellent memories. Well back to life I guess, I think I might start looking more at that, how my life is here and what it would be like some where else because I think I'm almost done here. I like all the great friends I have made, and I could not ask for more for job statifaction, maybe more money but other then that I have nothing here I think it might be time to start the search again.

Any way I just thought I would do a little up date while my mind was a mess and thats really all I have to say for now.

Today is the day

My sister is going to be here today, I am not sure what time but I'm going to take a guess and say she will be in town by 5:30pm tonight, maybe 6. I am hoping that everything goes well with her here, I'm a little worried about the other people in my building as I forgot that this was an adult building and kids are normally not allowed but I think most people would think that was for a living situation not a visiting one. I also hope my appartment is aired out enough for my sisters liking and that she can stay here. Due to the fact that I smoke it gets not so nice in here, and she hates the smell of smoke. So I've tried with everything to make sure that the smell is not in here, but I can not really tell because I'm a smoker. I would need a second person to really make sure of it and would have to be someone who does not smoke.

Feeling a little better since last time that I wrote, minus from this morning I'm feeling like crap, but thats alright I'm sure that will go away. I have to run to the store today before they get here so that I have something for the boys to eat when they get here. Man I'm going to need a nap today I'm to sleepy. I did not sleep well last night, nor for very long so on top of the feeling like crap I am also very sleepy. I just want to get the stuff that I need to get come home and have a long nap until my sister gets to town.

Any way I think I'm going to go and relaxe for a bit before heading out to the store. Will write again soon.

Tomorrow is my Friday

Well I have 10 whole days off at the end of tomorrow! I get to see my Sister and her little guys, I'm soooo HAPPY! I've been feeling kinda ill latly and not totally sure why, I hope I'm not coming down with something. Still need to find out how the weekend is going to pan out, because its kind of a mess at this point, I hate not knowing things! I went to a BIG meeting last night with my work place, and got a lot of great Networking in, it was good and I think I made a great impression considering everyone who I spoke with wanted to meet the person behind this one special program and well that was me.

This week has been really long, it seems like it has gone by so slow, I wish it was Thursday today because I really need to sleep more then I have been, I've been so sleepy but again I think this is due to the fact that I feel like I'm coming down with something.

I would like to talk about this guy, but I do not like sharing to much of that info on this thing but all I have to say is why are men so weird and hard to understand sometimes? I just wish I had an idea where he was coming from. I need to do some house cleaning Friday and some other things to get ready for my sister. Then if I do not leave for my home province I think I might go over to the guys house and do some movies or something.

Any way, I'm going to go I just wanted to update and really let anyone who reads this know that I am alive and kicking.

What does it all mean?

So this week went by very fast. My long time firend came into town and we had a great time. The only thing is so strange things happend while she was here, like this girl who I met while we where out one night took my hand and said something strange to me considering I have never met her before that night. MY sister said that this sounds like I might be coming out of the closet of something by this statement and I just wanted to make it very clear that I Like MEN and Men only. The girl said something about my past relationship that was the weird thing.

I'm not to sure what the world is trying to tell me right now but something is up. I had a really great visit with my firend it was a blast and I am so happy that she came to visit.

Back to work tomorrow and then in two more weeks my sister comes to see me! WOOT... I am looking forward to seeing my little guys I love them so much and I do not get enough time with them.

There is a lot more that I want to talk about but I do not think that this is place to talk about this kind of thing. So I'm going to save it and talk to my firend about what happened. Oh well I thought I would just do a little up date so that everyone knows I'm alive still. I hope I get all my work down in the next few weeks I have a lot to do before my next vacation, so heres hoping Thursday brings much consintation and a lot of work to be done.

Again I like Men!

I hate being sick

So I am sick yet again! It sucks bum because I have such a fun week planned for my clients and now I'm just the bummer of the party so to speak. It was such a hard day and I really want to call in sick tomorrow but if I do that then the program will be a no go because there is no one to take my place. It sucks because I really do not want to let my clients down! So I will be going in tomorrow sick or not! I love my job but some days when things are like this all I want to do is sleep and go in some dark place where no one can find me!

Any way I just wanted to wine a bit and now I'm done. I hope I get better soon, MY FRIEND IS HERE NEXT WEEK!!!! so happy about that!

WOOH

So today was my Walk for MS, Thank you to everyone who pledged money to this great event! It was a wonderful morning, the sun was shinning everyone had lots of energy and it was the perfect day to walk! We did the 6km walk only but it felt so good! I'm glad the bad weather waited for us all to finish. It is now raining like crazy and I'm glad we didn't have to walk in that. I have had a pretty GREAT weekend; it’s been a lot of fun! I'm not totally sure what next weekend will bring me but I cannot wait to find out.

Lazar tag was GREAT! I came in 4th in on my team, with something like 6000+ points, my co-work came in first and had 12000 point 300 away from the record board! It was so much fun, we all sweated so much it was not even funny! Wow you can really hear the ran coming down its crazy raining.

Any who I just thought I would up date not much else to say really but this week is going to be really cool and I am looking forward to my weekend!

Weekend soon

So it will be the weekend soon, and I am looking forward to it but at the same time kind of sad about it. One of my co-workers last day is on Friday and this person is very well liked he is a great person and we are all very sad to loss such a wonderful spirit. He is moving back east with his family. We are having a good-bye party for him on Friday. Then on Saturday well I hope that my plans do not get all bummed out again like last weekend but you never know. I'm not going to jinx them just in case, the person the plans are with will not even say we are doing anything out right just encase it will jinx it. This makes me laugh! Sunday is my Walk for MS! Looking forward to that.

Next week is another busy week there are three big days coming up for me and I just realized the other day that Friday is JUNE! Already, what the heck? My Friend is coming from BC WOOOT!!! I'm so happy about that I cannot wait to see them!!! Then the end of the month which seems super far away at the moment but I know its just going to come up on me like no tomorrow, my sister is going to be here. FUN! In three month is will be my one year with my job!!!! That is freakin crazy!

I have found forgiveness for something also, this does not mean that I think what happened was right or that I ever want to be in this position again but I have found it, and it is liberating! I have been trying to live in the motto "Do you" but it has been harder then I thought it would be. My head likes to take over and think out everything way too much, it’s beginning to darn my body. I really need to stop and just breath I am going to try and do this when I have some time off soon here, when my friend is visiting, I know I will get back to me with this person! I cannot WAIT!!!! I wish it were sooner. Any who I should go I think that’s really all I have right now any way.

Half way through

So it is the middle of the week and I am feeling a little worn out, This week has been a big week. I have planned like crazy to make sure that this week goes really well, so far it has not been that bad there is just so much to do some times. I got to go to Hall of Fame today. It was a tone of fun and I did some things that I thought I might not ever so woot for me! Thanks to my Co-worker for not wanting to go :)

Tomorrow is the last day of my program that I spent a tone of time planning and I am very much looking forward to that, its going to be nice to have this day finally come! Life is going well, I am liking being a lone right now and enjoying some much needed me time! My sister is coming to my city in about a month now and I am looking so forward to that it is not even funny, plus I get some much needed time off from work so thats also very good.

I think I am going to make a plan soon for something that I have been wanting to do for a long time now but just kind of sitting around doing nothing about. I am not going to talk to much about this because I think it will not be a good idea, but I'm working towards something that might be great so wish me blind luck. Any who I'm going to grab something to eat and take some down time.

Blah

So its been a bit now since I up dated but I did not want to update in hopes that people would donate to my walk for MS. But since no one has done that yet... feel the guilt!! I thought I would up date.

I have been in a lot of pain since saturday night, my teeth are killing me and I have never had this kind of pain before. Tomorrow I'm to go get a root canal and I hope to god that this all goes away after. I never want to feel this again, plus the stupid pills they have me on make me sleepy and feel like I'm higher then a kite! So I tried to go to work today and ended up coming home at 10:30 because I was in a lot of pain, came home took some more pain pills and fell asleep for 3 more hours. I hate this, the pain is back right now and all I want to do is sleep again because at lest then I do not feel it.

Can not wait for tomorrow, maybe if I have the energy I will update when I get home from my root canal. More then likely I will be sleeping but who knows maybe I'll just be so happy not to feel like ass that I will just stay up and enjoy the feeling of being normal again. Thats all for now.

The Super Cities Walk for MS

So on June 3rd my co-workers and I are going to walk for MS. This was an idea from one of my co-workers as his father had MS. His father is no longer living.

My mother was diagnosed with MS, when I was 17 years old. She is very health at the moment but has had some hard days from then to now. When my co-worker asked if I would want to walk with him I did not even think about it I just said yes. I really would like to participate in this and if you think this is a good clause then PLEASE go to the link and Donate to our Team.

**MS: Multiple sclerosis is a complex disease. While it is most often diagnosed in young adults, aged 15 to 40, we know that it affects children, some as young as two years old. The impact is felt by family, friends and by the community. MS is unpredictable, affecting vision, hearing, memory, balance and mobility. Its effects are physical, emotional, financial, and last a lifetime. There is no cure.**

Donate to: Marken's Miracle Makers (click the link to help us make a difference!)

https://msors.mssociety.ca/Walk2007/SponsorTeam.aspx?&PID=961012&L=2

10 days later!

So it has been a bit now, but I have been super busy and I have decided to take the night off from all the crap that I have been up to. I've had some intresting past few days and I think I'm starting to get a real life in the city that I live in, I'm always out or busy or doing something at the moment but it could just be the timing thing and in a week or two it could all go back to the way it was.

I still miss all my friends a lot and I would really like them to come and visit, but we will see what happens. I went to this comdy thing last night and the guy was so funny it was GREAT! I laughed my ass off. I also offically miss my sister and the kids!! Also my other family members but not as much as her family. I think I need to visit soon, I do not know if I can wait until July, but I think I am going to have to.

I still love my job, but its beginning to get really busy I have a million things on the go and I think I need to slow it down a bit again because I'm becoming a little overwhelmed. But I will get through this and I will go on to do even more! Any way I think that is all I really have to say for now I will try and up date more often and I hope everyone who reads this is having as great of a time that I am right now :) woot

Did I mention I love my job!

So today I got a suprise at work and it was freakin GREAT! I love what I do... I would write more details but well I always worry about stuff like that. Any way this week ended on a really good note. I'm really happy about that, and now its the weekend and I am sitting in my apt with nothing to do and going a little crazy. God I need to meet people!

Any who thats all I wanted to say for right now.

Oh happy day :)

Just an update

So this week was a little hard until today, I had an excellent day. I had so much fun at work it was not even funny! I LOVE what I do! The people I work with just have a way of making everything go away. We went on a hay ride and milked a fake cow and saw some dogs do work with ducks it was excellent! Tomorrow is the end of the week and I am looking forward to my weekend. It should be a good weekend, and I think I might even go out with a friend. Thats right a friend :) woot! I use to work with this person and it should be fun, they are having a movie night so wooo. Not sure what night yet but I'm sure it will all work out.

I hope next week is as good as today was all week! However next week is going to be hard and there is a lot of work that must be done so I many end up working over the weekend because I have so much to finish before monday. Oh well I just thought I would update, thats it for now.

Just had to post this

I saw this guy singing this song on much music and I listened to all the words and suddenly felt moved. The words in it are great and I saw this and listened to it and it made me feel better. I'm not sure how music does this to people but it does it to me. Some times I can be in the worst place in the world and I will hear something that will bring me back. I think I am going to make this song offically my 'bring me back' song. We all get so lost some times and I think in times when I'm lost or hurt this song will help me bring it back to me.

On the day note, today was a long day and kind of hard but I'm hoping tomorrow will be better. I'm to go to this Ranch again on Wend and it looks like its going to rain! Boo I'm sick of bad weather when I take my people anywhere. But it will still be a lot of fun, looking forward to it and than Thur :) wooot! The weekend I hope will be good also. I need to call my Landlord at some point tonight or tomorrow to find out when he is going to finish everything here.

I hope to get better sleep tonight and I hope that tomorrow is better than today, I have so much work to do gezz I hope that I can get it done so I do not have to do it over the weekend. One person I have to work, I am having a hard time with this person because they never seem to have the time to do the job they get paid to do. It kind of pisses me off because this person has only been with us for a bit and he is trying to advance and everyone supports him, but he can't get what he needs to done. I am always getting shit done and it goes by with nothing from any one. Oh well, I hope you enjoy these Lyrics they are unbelievable!

All About Me
Classified Ft Chad Hatch
[Chad Hatch:]
Life's not what you take
It's not about the promises you make
It's not about the friends you might've made
Or love that is gone

Life is what you give
It's not about the stupid things you did
It's not about the way things could've been
It's about movin' on

[Chorus:]
It's all about you
So every morning when wake, before the first step that you take
Just think it's not what you make it
And you'll make it through

[Classified:]
This life will leave you stressed out, left out with your neck out, ain't nothing changed
It's real life so we deal right but it feels like it's something strange.
We wonderin' the dumbest things and let everything get under our skin
Trouble again, tryin' to impress someone else. It's fucked in the head.
So do you, you'll never make everyone happy. It just won't happen.
At the end of day, when all say is said, you better be ready to go back at'em.
I learn slow, my verse shows my growth, my wisdom.
If you positive, or you negative, it don't make a difference not when you live it.
Cause some of the most successful people on this planet
Will kill themselves for somebody else's like they really couldnt manage.
Then we got bums, alcoholics on the streets
With no stress, no where to rest, no where to dress, no where to sleep.
And they say fuck my morals. I'm drinkin' away my sorrows.
I'm livin' life and I'm happy, I ain't thinking about tomorrow.

[Chorus]

[Chad Hatch:]
Life is what it brings
It's not about cars and fancy things
Or hairsalons and diamond rings
Girls don't lose your seed

Life is all about the things you'll never figure out
It's all about the people you allow in and the memories that you keep

[Classified:]
This here is life so tell me who choses whats wrong and right.
Is it what we see on tv? Get a job, raise a family.
That's how I was raised, how I was brought up
Get a wife, a son and daughter.
That's how I was taught to be proper.
Never thought anyone could get caught up.
And slowly I get up and the fairytale quickly vanished.
Realized that life is a bitch and shit, you gotta be able to stand it.
And you gotta be able to handle it, this stress and the pressure, you channel it..
And you learn to cope at the end of your rope anyway that you can with liqor or dope.
Or work hard, raise your kids. Strip clubs, whatever it is.
Smoke weed, shoot hoops, whatever you find your happiness through.
It's your life. Just make sure you know what you want when you go out and get it
Keep doing this shit for you, not your crew or the dude you're tryna impress, kid.
Life is simple, life is hard and yeah life is fun
So enjoy the things around you before your life is done.

[Chorus]

Why?

Some times I wounder why me, why does this always have to happen to me? I know you have no idea what I am talking about but tonight everything sucks, and all I want to do it kick something or go and cry in the darkness. I thought life was going to get better, and now maybe it will have a chance to again but at them moment all I want to know is WHY!

I think I can feel my blood boil! I can not remember the last time I was this mad, oh yes I can it was in December. All I want to do is say bad words and have a drink or a pack of smokes that might be alright also. GOD

Any way I just needed to get some of that out of my system I'm done now.

Happy Friday the 13th

So back to work was great! I got to go to Red Deer for a hike and it was so much fun. Than today I got to go to the YMCA it was great! I am so happy I have my new driving stuff! Next week I get to go on a hike again and I get to take some clients to this thing in down town. Its great! So happy to be back at work.

This weekend I might go out! So looking forward to that. I'm going shopping with my co-worker tomorrow during the day. That will be good I really need to find some new shoes! I really have nothing else to write about right now so I'm going to leave it at that for now.

End of vacation

Well this is the last day of my vacation and I could not be happier, I cannot wait to get back to work. This free time is kinda driving me a little nuts to say the lest! I have so much work to do when I get back, at the end of this month we have our accreditation coming up and that is going to be so much fun, I've been picked two times to talk now. I hope I do well. I need to start finishing all my lessons and getting everything in order. So I have two weeks to do that HAha I did not realize that, dear lord! Well I can pull this out I will just have to get moving as fast as I can. So tomorrow I think I have a meeting but wend, thru, and Fri. will be working ass off time in order to get everything done.

Tomorrow is going to be my first day taking my new rote to work and I hope I get there in time and that the train is not supper crazy, even though I know it will be but one can dream, I have to make my lunch tonight and make sure I get to sleep at a good hour. The last few days I've had a really hard time sleeping and not going to sleep until crazy hours of the morning and night, last night was the worse! I think the last time I looked at the clock was 5 am, now tonight some how I need to sleep at 11 at the latest and get up for 6am. I hope I can because I have to go out of town with my group tomorrow and I do not want to be driving all super sleepy with 14 people in my van!

So I'm going to start working out again, because I'm really sick of feel like crap so next week I'm going to start doing some stuff again, this week kinda gets messed up due to the holiday today. But I'm going to start all over again next week. My weekend this week is going to be finish up all the details for work, fun fun. Man I have so much work to do! Any way I think that’s all I'm going to write for now.

Finally

So I am offically moved in I have my internet, phone, and tv again, woot. I still have a few things left at the old place but you know its hard getting all the little things some times. I'm happy to be in my new place I still have a lot to do here but its coming along. I hope that when I have the cat conversation goes on that it goes really well I miss my kitty like crazy right now and I wish she was here! So I have 5 days of my vacation left to relax and decorate! I need to find my hammer but I am not sure where it is I think I have unpacked most everything at this point and have not come across it stupid thing yet.

I find myself with very little motavation today to get things done but I want to so it feels like home and I feel comfy agian. I got this really cool picture but I can't seem to get it to stay on the wall, I have to use mack-tac but it keeps coming down no matter how much I put on so I think I'm going give tape a try and see if that works any better. I think it weighs to much for the tac but we will see maybe its the wall or something. Oh well any way I'm off to look for my tape and see if I can get the silly thing to stay up. I will write again soon.

boo

So today was a little bit of a show, first of all I'm up at 7am all ready to go and get moved in. Drive to the place and walk in with my bed in arm to... a ladder and stuff all over my new living room and kitchen! This pissed me off a little and so unload the bed and go back to old place and call new landlord... what the hell is going on I thought you where going to be done? So he's a little rude and I get frustrated but the show must go on... any way I grab a few more things and head over again at 1pm and he is there say blah blah blah whatever and really rude! So I leave pissed off and just fuming pack some more into the truck and go over again, than he says due to the inconvenience I'm going to take $100 off this months rent...I'm think SWEET! So regardless to say I'm not staying there tonight I still have more to move tomorrow but I didn't want to be in there tonight cause he was doing something to the floors in the kitchen and just in case I did not want to breath those fumes in!

So it looks like tomorrow I will move the rest of my stuff and be in there for Monday night. He still has more work to do and will be coming in at some point tomorrow also but I have to be there as my couch is getting delivered between 12 and 5pm. So I hope that it all goes well and I will be in my new place tomorrow night. I have some more stuff to pack still but no more boxes so I have to unpack some stuff and come back and re-pack the things I don't have room for yet. Any way I thought I would update the current situation because its a little aggravating and well I need to vent somewhere. So this time I hope that I will not be able to update until my computer is up and running on the 4th!

Things happen to fast!

Well its been a bit again, and it will be a bit until I can post again after tonight, you see I'm moving (with in my city). I was going to be moving in May but I found this really great place for a great price so I jumped on it and now after a 4 days to pack my whole life up, which is not down yet but I have run out of boxes, I am moving tomorrow morning. It kinda took me a back at how fast this all has happened. But on I go full steam ahead and scared out of my mind. It's funny how things turn out you know. Never in a million years would I have imagined this is where my life would be right now.

My internet, phone and cable will not be ready to go until the 4th, I have my couch coming on the 2nd, and a dentist appointment on the 3rd. Than its smooth sailing or at lest I hope it is, I still have to get my cat in but I'm hoping that will not be a problem. I have 10 whole days off work which by the time I am settled in my new place will be down to 5! So I will have 5 days to de-stress and relax. That should be good. I have no idea what my future is going to be at this point in time and that is so unbearably stressful, things are all over the place. I'm staying in a city where I hardly know a soul and I'm going out on my own, I think I had to write that to realize that I'm really going to do this.

I am not to sure what else to write at this point in time, wish me luck! I will post again from chateaus la M. Thats all for now.

A fast update!

So I have to leave in a bit to run around and do some stuff but I thought I would up date about something I talked about in my last post. The competition at work so our boss thought that both teams did excellent in both areas so we all got two days off with pay!!! Woot, I'm not sure when I will use mine more than likely when my sister comes to visit. But I was supper happy when I found that out. Its nice to be rewarded for doing something like that and knowing your stuff and the ability to be creative. So the count down is still on and now four days until I get my vacation!!! THANK GOD, I need a break so bad its not even funny.

Any way thats all I have to say for now and I need to start getting ready to leave I have an hour so not to long and need to get dressed and blow dry my hair and such so I'm going to go. I'll write more later.

Almost a week....

So it is almost a week until I get a week off work! WOOT, I cannot wait to have some time off, it is much needed, and as of today it is 10 days until I get my vacation! That includes the weekend also. I was going to go back to my home town for a few days but I am not sure if I will be able to do that now, I'm going to wait and see what happens and go from there. So I know that I mentioned that I was looking into become a supportive roommate, or did I? Any way I have done up my cover letter for that and just need to do some grammar and punctuation checks and than I can start applying to different agencies. I still have some thinking to do about that before I decide for sure that’s what I want to do but I leaning towards yuppiers at the moment.

The biggest things holding me back are the "what if's" and the clients I work with also because there are people that I look at and think dear lord what the f**k would I do if I had to live with that every day! But at the same time it would be a great experience and I feel I would be a great roommate for one of them because I know what they need and what they want but never seem to get from others. So I feel I could provide a new kind of life for them. But the largest question in my mind is... Am I really ready to take this on my plate? At the moment I cannot answer that question, but I think I am ready to at lest begin some of the start points for this quest.

Today I think I had the funniest training in the whole world we did a scavenger hunt for policies and a bunch of other junk but it was a tone of fun. I think it was the most enjoyable thing I have done there yet, on a personal level not a professional one. The management team was to announce the winners by the end of the day and did not but there are two different categories, Creativity and Education. The prize for each is a Day OFF with pay, so you have the possibility to get two days with pay off, which would be grand. But the other team did a good job to and did their work so I feel as though I would want the other team to get one of my days off because they tried really hard but I must say this my team kicked some major bum!

Any who I don't have much else to say besides that for now, wish me luck in winning at lest one day off with pay and I'm going to run now.

Its been a while.... again

I have a hard time updating all the time and can never seem to do it. Than at times I get to my computer and get in the mood to write and than all the sudden my mind is blank! Does that evr happen to any one else? I sure hope so, I have been finding out a lot lately that I'm not the only one who goes through a lot of things. I hade a really good talk with one of my co-workers today, her and I do not work together she is in a different program but she is supper cool and always has really good things to say. It was refreashing to know that I am not the only one in the world who has hard days.

So work is going well, I feel a little over worked and under paid but I mean what should I expect working in Social Services! Also I feel like we are being watched lately, my boss came into one of my classes the other day just to see how things where going, this never has happened before! I'm not sure if they are coming to see how we are doing or if they want to make sure that we are doing our job that they thing we aren't. So I have come up with a great solution, make them particapate! haha So when my boss came in I said " come sit at the table and pay the game with us, she did and than after two rounds left saying this was lots of fun. Today one of the other Managers came in and I got him up and playing a game also. I play a lot of games but I feel that pratical us makes things easier for my clients to understand how to us the skills I teach.

Any way after I got him up he tried to leave right away but he had a lot of fun, I'm not sure if they understand why I do things the way I do but I think its important that they see I'm trying to give the clients the best possible experience! I have some time off soon and I am so looking forward to that, not as much as I was before because I am now not going anywhere but I really need the time off and who knows maybe I'll rent a car and just go somewhere else for a bit. I really could use a change of pace, even for just a little bit. Any who I have some things to do before I go to bed so I will try to write again soon, and hopfully I have something to say when I sit down to write.

Just something I thought was cool!

Four jobs I have had in my life:

1. Program Facilatator

2. Cashier

3. Care giver

4. Manager in training

Four Movies I like:

1. Sweet Home Alabama

2. Little Mermaid

3. The Notebook

4. Baraka

Four places that I've lived:

1. Vancouver

2. Saskatoon

3. Gravenhurst

4. St.Onesime

Four TV shows I love to watch:

1. The OC (but off the air now)

2. The Gilmore girls

3. Simpsons

4. America's Next Top Model

Four places I have been on vacation:

1. Victoria

2. Montreal

3. Kelowna

4. My Home town

Four of my favorite foods:

1. Avocado sandwiches

2. cheese cake

3. pizza

4. kozyshake pudding

Four places I would rather be right now:

1. on a beach

2. hugging my nephews

3. (only sometimes) anywhere but here!

4. Paris

The beginning of the week

Well it is Monday tomorrow and I feel a little rested at lest. I have been going to the Library a lot lately and have got some great stuff for my week; I got some DVD's on Math, literacy, and government as I start my program this week on that kinda stuff. I think my clients will get a lot out of these movies... well I hope anyway. I have a lot of problems teaching the math component as I am good at math I am not so good at breaking it down into the really simple stuff so the one DVD I got has all kinds of math songs and rhymes to remember the things you are to do. It looks great and I think I might learn what will work really well for them with this.

I have been getting a lot of movies lately from the Library its great! I made this really great thing over the weekend but I can't say to much about it as it is for my sister, and a surprise... so surprise sis your getting something extra special from me soon. I wish I could tell more but as soon as she has gotten the package I will talk about it. Which will not be for a bit because something else I am doing is having issues right now, so as soon as that part is done off it will go!

I got to see a Canstruction at my local city hall this past week also for those of you who read my blog and do not know what that is look at this web site: http://www.canstruction.com/indexn.html
Every thing in these sculptures are made out of non perishable food items its really cool! Any way it’s getting kinda late here and I have some stuff to do yet before the night is done I will write more later!

Stupid Driving people~!

So Yesterday I went for my driving test because I have to have a different license in order to drive my clients around. Any way it went really well subtract from the fact that the stupid man said "this license would mean that you are a professional driver, and your parallel park was not professional!" What the F*ing hell?..."you did everything else totally right and really well but that parking was not good and its states that if you can not do that well than you are an automatic Fail."
Alright So I know you are a professional dude but come on you have got to be kidding me! So I have to go back on Thursday next week and do it all over again.

So normally I don't really like swearing a whole bunch but jess yesterday when I got back to work F this F that Stupid F*ing moron who fails someone for not doing it 'professionally'. He can go to hell! The worse part is the test will be with him again :( not so happy about that!

Anyway now that I think my rant is down, last night I went to the opening ceremonies for the clients at work and it was pretty darn cool, did not however stay for the whole event as I was getting a mass o head-ache and I was so hungry I think the people around me could hear my tummy over everything else. So we left at about 8pm. But other than the leaving early and loud stuff it was GREAT.

I should be on my way I have some stuff I need to get out of the way today before I can relax and try and distress! Have a good day!!

Pretty things

So I am on a long weekend, and it is nice to have an extra day to just relaxe. I was thinking about doing somethings today which I still may but for now its nice to to take in the sound of typing and slince...and the little sounds of tracfic of course. So yesterday I went to this part of the city that I love and got some really intresting things. I got this really pretty wax flower, its one of those hawwii flowers and some mental art!

Here is the flower!


Here is the metal art, very pretty butterflies!

I also tried to go see something else but there where warning signs outside that said "be ready for long line ups, we are very busy today" So did not end up going in. Any who I just got out of bed a little bit ago and have yet to eat so I'm going to go have some food, I will write again soon.

Weekends are a good thing

Thank goodness for the joyful weekend! I need a freaking break so bad its not even funny, between all the clients fighting and all the staff going crazy at my job I think I am well due for a restful weekend! On Monday I have to go write a driving test to "Up grade" My license. Kinda scary but I'm sure it will all go really well. I found out yesterday that my sister (who I knew was going to come visit some point this year) asked my mom and dad to come along with her on the trip. Maybe in July or something. I think that would be nice to see them all.

I think that I'm slowly becoming less and less interesting, I can never think of anything to say or to write about. I have a lot that happens from time to time but I sit here and I can never think of a damn stupid thing to say ever, its kinda stupid. With my work we have an art studio in the downtown of my city. Tomorrow there is a workshop that is free, or by donation. They are making lanterns, and I am thinking about heading down there to go paint one up. But we will have to see what tomorrow brings.

Any way I think I might head off to do something productive not that this is not just I think I might be able to do something else. Come to think of it I think I will just go watch some TV or something and relax.

Woot

So its the week end finally! Thank goodness I needed a break. So the last few days I have been seeing this silly thing on TV and I decided to go to the web site and look at it, so I did it and this is was I came up with.
This is me as an M&M, kinda fun kinda silly, kind of a wast of time but still fun. If you want to make your self into an M&M or just create something silly here is me free advertising for M&M's Go to :

www.becomeanmm.com

Happy Saturday

Just for fun

A-Available or Taken: Taken :)

B-Best Friend: hmm you know the sad thing about this is I have some Great Friends but because of the way life is now I would not say that any are a Best friend.

C-Cake or Pie: Cake, I love cake, pie is good to, but I like cake better!

D-Drink of Choice: I really like this soy drink, its called silk and its chocolate. But I have not had it in a very long time.

E-Essential Item (s) Used Everyday: Glasses! I think thats my number one because with out them I am lost!

F-Favorite Color: BLUE, and lately red also

G-Gummy Bears or Worms: Bears, I use to bit the heads off of a few and that mix and match the bodies and head, kinda crazy but I thought that the two fruit flavors together where GREAT!

H-Hometown: Small little town in Northern BC

I-Indulgence: Madagascar Chocolate made by Lindt chocolate man! mmmm good!

J-January or February: January My nephew was born in this month! I love him and his brother so very much and I miss them all the time~!

K-Kids & Names: I don't have kids... and the thought of what I would name them has crossed my mind but I will save those for when I have to make that decision.

L-Life Is Incomplete Without: Family and friends and my kitty

M-Marriage Date: Unknown at this point in time, I can not see into the future!

N-Number of Siblings: 2 - brother and sister

O-Oranges or Apples: Mandarin oranges

P-Phobias or Fears: being high up on anything! I don't think that will ever go away. Also I fear that I am not on the right path some times but that has always been an on going fear of mine.

Q-Favorite Quote: "Don't Frown because you never know who is falling in love with your smile."

R-Reason To Smile: Because I am lucky enough to be here and every day is a gift!

S-Season: Summer

T-Tag 3 or 4 People: I don't believe in Tags but I think this is a great way to get to know others and your self

U-Unknown Fact About Me: One time when me and my sister and brother where all alone at our house we saw the moon but it took up the whole sky! it was the weirdest thing in the world and no one ever believed us!

V-Vegetable You Don't Like: onions use to be it but I like most everything now, however I still kinda think onions are nasty!

W-Worst Habit: Smoking!

X-X-rays: teeth, knees, neck, back, feet, hands, I think that is it.

Y- Your Favorite Food: umm kozy shack pudding! I think thats the best think ever!

Z-Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius

God I take forever

So its been a long time since I last wrote anything on here but I have been busy and trying to get things all back on track. I can't even remember what I wrote last time I was writing. I got flowers yesterday for no reason...in them was pink roses, one calla-lily, some daises, and other dark pinkish coloured flowers. Very nice surprise!
I figure before I write more I will do this thing I found on my sisters blog:

From 'The End of the World'
The rules are simple:

1. Find the nearest book.
2. Name the book.
3. Name the author.
4. Turn to page 123.
5. Go to the fifth sentence on the page.
6. Copy the next three sentences and post to your blog.
7. Tag three more lucky souls. (from me... OPTIONAL! - I say if you are reading this and have a minute give it a try - no time - don't worry about it.)

1) found the nearest book in a box full of book, closed my eye and grabbed one
2) Shirley
3)Charlotte Bronte
4) page 123 found!
5) five sentences in..
6) Moore laughed.
"A most pithy vaunt," said he; "one that redounds vastly to the credit of your dear Yorkshine friends. But don't fear for me, Lina: I am on guard against these lamb-like compatriots of yours: don't make yourself uneasy about me."
"How can I help it? ..."
very interesting I don't understand the point of this but I thought it was a cool thing.

Now where was I... What I have been doing... well work has been busy and I have been finishing up a proposal that I had been working on for about 2 months. Which was delivered yesterday to its destination after approval from my CEO! Fun fun. I have been looking into other jobs, but I think I am happy where I am, I was just getting to into all the politics around that place. I have taken my self out of that now and things are so much better!

I have started paying back my student loan.. fun..sad really, but it has to be done or I will get in a load of trouble. What else has been going on? Not all that much just it seems that it was all a little overwhelming. Strange I was so stressed and going crazy and now my mind is blank as to what has been taking place these past weeks. I think I want to go see my family in April but I'm not sure if that is going to work out, we will have to see. Any who I should run I have a lot of work to get done and its not getting done with me sitting here typing away.

weekends

Well this weekend was pretty good, on Friday night we went to a Dinner Theater, and it was soooo good! I laughed and laughed, it was the best show we have seen there yet and the next one should be even better! I am looking forward to it. On Sat we went to Ikea and got a new bed frame and a new TV stand, Our living room looks very nice now and I am glad that we got that. The bed frame is also nice, however its a little strange to be off the floor as high as we are so that is a bit strange. But other wise I really like it a lot!

Work is going well, I am a little over stressed but I think that might be getting better soon, I'm trying to not take on so much. I just get to into my job and I want to do as much as I can and than I take on a load that might be a bit to much and I feel like I'm going to break! So I think I'm going to plan a vacation soon, I might go back to my home town and help my sister out while her husband is away, I'll have to look in to when I will get the most out of taking a break. I might sit down with my calendar tonight and take a look at just that, because I would really like to spend some good time with my nephews and my sister.

Any way I think I'm going to go and start looking into so planning but I will try to be more on the ball with writing.